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thank you @ladee and @Cashew

hey everyone, I have been so blessed to see how much people actually care and care for my wellbeing:) I am blessed to have this supportive group in my time of distress. I am so grateful to call you guys my friends and my family! You guys are amazing! Thank you for checking up on me all the time...

i have a fear of emergency rooms, I've only ever been sent to the psych ward from here. I have to stay overnight and a utterly terrified. I didn't have the heart for my husband to get up out of bed to be with me. Can someone just PM me and we will talk from there.

@Ember thank you for the kind words. I'm trying to be kind and focused. I feel I am not strong anymore and everyone can see it :( @Junebug it could be all of those things. September -February are my worst months, I go to school full time and work full time. It's very exhausting in all sense of...

I think I'm just going to start typing and see what comes out. I haven't been going to therapy for 6 weeks now and I feel like I am regressing. I'm putting myself back in the shell I was in before I was in therapy. I'm constantly in a state of dissociating (mostly of the mind). I can hear...

I feel like no matter what comes my way I'm just going to shut it out. It's just hard to think about the fact that I had made plans to kill myself and a suicide note. I'm just really saddened by those actions. And I really just hate St. Patrick's Week :(

Thank you @ladee! It's nice to know others understand. I feel kinda lost and like I'm not worth much.

is it bad that most of the time I just shut everything off. I've been sick with food poisoning and still have pains from it. But since I got it, it has been difficult for me to regulate my emotions, I feel out of control again. And because it's difficult for me to regulate them, I have just shut...

I really like this, I will have to try and fix this about myself. Also thinking about ways to incorporate 5 minutes of relaxation a day.

I don't know why but I'll have to get back to this post later, I'm starting to shut down.

I could see that but I don't know. I feel like it's weird.

I don't have one at the moment @lostforgottensoul. Mine was a piece of shit, I'm not trying to self diagnose. I want to know what I'm doing and why.

So for the last like 10 years, that I can remember, it's been way more excessive the last 3 maybe, I scratch my head to get all the stuff off, eat the stuff (clean out under my nails) and continue scratching. I'm not itchy. I've made myself bleed, I don't know why I do this... I don't even know...

When I start to flashback, I get stiff and become catatonic. I will stay in the same position for 5+ minutes, which isn't normal for me, I'm constantly moving something. I look like I'm day dreaming at first then it's like I can feel myself start to shut down and crumble.

Have you tried talking to your wife about it?

I read about those a few years ago when I first found out I had PTSD. I occasionally will question what I remember and why but I've found the most faith in my dreams. Those are about the only thing I trust. So don't over think it, you will be just fine and your memories are VERY real.

I'm so sorry. I am here if you want, I have skype and a phone.

What I want @BlueOrange is to figure out why these people keep treating me like this and why I can't get over a section of 4 months of my life..... That's what I want.

@BlueOrange I know that I am not doing good for myself by hiding but I'm not sure I can help it. Therapists scare me because of my past with some f*cked up ones. (I.e. Being on enough lithium -at 16- to kill me by the time I was 35). I have a hard time trusting, I think this guy is a good fit...

I'm not exactly sure because I feel like I shouldn't expect anything except for the obvious, not sleeping on me and actually listening and not judging...?

@anthony ive done this so many times now that I am about to give up. I feel so alone.

@anthony i am afraid of therapists. All of the ones that ive had have messed me up worse. I won't even go into all the details. @hodge but you guys are good now? I think I'm also super sensitive today because I've been jumpy, hypervigilent and a bit down. I think he would be a good fit for me...

I was talking to the man who I am going to see on Friday for a new approach to therapy. I don't know what set me off while talking to him but after I got off the phone with him I immediately called my husband and almost straight broke into tears (I NEVER do that).... What the hell is going on...