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    Catholic Guilt

    I am having serious issues with the Catholic Church right now. I am so angry that I don't know if there's room for guilt. I recently recovered memories of sexual abuse by my father and we are aware of very close ties between my father (deceased) and a know pedophile Catholic priest. He was a...
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    Therapist going away and i've been in crisis for a month

    I'm so sorry. I would feel pretty panicked too.
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    Is my trauma valid and bad enough?

    Denying the reality or the severity of our trauma is very common. I think yours is completely valid.
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    A few random therapy questions

    1. No. Facebook kept suggesting her as a friend so I blocked that. It was awkward. I do belong to a FB group she created about MIndfulness. She invited everyone who took the class. (She teaches it). 2. Yes, I gave her some candy I had made the first Christmas I was seeing her...
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    Frustration with t

    Can you call the new T and explain your frustrations and concerns? I guess I would try the old T again. I don't know. I would be upset and confused too. I'm sorry.
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    Male vs. female

    My therapist is a female. All of mine have been female. I was sexually abused by both a male neighbor and by my father. I don't think I'd be comfortable taking to a man about any of that.
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    Do you ever feel hurt when your t is late for appointments?

    My T frequently runs 5-10 minutes late, whether it's because she has a session run over or because she gets the late. It used to bother me but 4 years in I expect it. She is an amazing, compassionate individual and I need that more than I need someone who is in time. That said, it sounds like...
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    How often do you go?

    I've been seeing my current T for almost four years. I went 1x week regularly with some extra sessions in there when I was in crisis. I couple of times we tried to ease into every other week and every time something happened and I was back to ever week. The last three months it's been 2x week...
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    Sexual Assault My husband is making me feel like liar....

    My husband has had a hard time with all of this. My PTSD diagnosis, understanding what triggers me, understanding my symptoms. It was a huge problem for me. My therapist finally referred him to a therapist who had extensive work with sexual abuse and assault victims. It's been tremendously...
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    Sexual Assault Repressed memories, therapy advice

    There are many therapists who don't take insurance and use a sliding scale based on income. Try that route and see if you find one who will work with you. The previous poster is 100% correct that you cannot force memories. My sister began uncovering repressed memories of sexual abuse by our...
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    Work has been so hard all of a sudden. csa mentioned

    That is exactly how I feel. My siblings do not share my feelings. They are still angry. (My sister was also sexually abused by my father; my brother was physically abused). But my anger at the church is akin to fury.
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    Anyone seen the keepers?

    Thank you!!
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    Anyone seen the keepers?

    I think it did. We talked about it a little more tonight. I currently teach in a Catholic school and am desperately looking for a job in a public school because I frequently feel like I just cannot go back there next year. I think this helped him understand why.
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    Anyone seen the keepers?

    Yes part of why I watched it again was because of how validating it was. I also wanted my husband to watch it with me. This has all been very confusing for him, understandably. And I wanted him to see what this has done to other people. I could relate so much with Jane Wehner and the recovery...
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    Anyone seen the keepers?

    I've watched it twice. It's been difficult to watch. I have recently recovered memories of sexual abuse by my father. We've known for years that he abused my sister but this was buried really deep. I had pretty much always remembered the abuse by my landlord so it's been really confusing...
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    Work has been so hard all of a sudden. csa mentioned

    Thank you. I think it's the arrogance of the church that has me so pissed off right now. They think it's okay to violate labor laws, pay their teachers absolute crap for wages, ruin people's lives and stand up there preaching about acting like Jesus. I'm sick of the arrogance and hypocrisy...
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    Work has been so hard all of a sudden. csa mentioned

    I teach in a Catholic school. I consciously decided I wanted to teach there because it was an environment I was familiar with, having been through Catholic school my whole childhood. A little less than two months ago, I got some clarity on some body memories that eee surfacing and it became...
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    How Do You Word It To Your Employer

    I am up front with my boss about having PTSD because sometimes I need special accommodations. My T has talked to her and there is a letter in my file indicating that I am under her care and responding well but still may need certain accommodations under certain circumstances. That also means I...
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    I think about my t way too much.

    I can relate. With me it's because I feel so safe with her. And validated. I told her last week that I count the days between sessions, and then on a day I have a session, I count the hours until I get there. She said that's all okay. I'm dealing with major trauma and repressed memories of...
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    Poll What Are Your Trauma(s)?

    I am dealing with parental emotional abuse, sexual abuse followed by about fifteen plus years of stalking by my landlord, recently recovered memories of incest during my toddler and preschool years which seem to include rape, sodomy, rape with a foreign object. In addition, I've had other...
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    Poll Is Your Therapist A Trauma Specialist?

    Mine isn't listed as a trauma specialist. And I sure as hell wasn't looking for one when I found her because half of my trauma was suppressed and the other half I was sure I'd dealt with. I thought I just had anger issues. But my T identified my PTSD. And she seems to know so much about...
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    Insomnia Is Getting Worse

    I had an awful time sleeping for most of my life. I took Melatonin for years and it stopped working. Same thing with Benadryl. I'd fall asleep only to wake up during the night for hours. My T talked to my doctor and she put me on Klonopin at night only. My T had determined I have sleep...
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    Sometimes it's just hard to show up...

    I totally get it. The effort of getting there and the anticipation of all th disasters that may or may not occur gets overwhelming. Any by disasters I mean what feels like disasters to us. I'm having the same issue right now. My therapist is great about co tactivg jy employer and there is a...
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    Is It Normal That Memories Feel Unreal?

    I question my memories all the time. It's a constant conversation I have with my T. She reminds me to listen to my body. My physical body knows what happened and is telling me. I have begun to trust that a small bit but really need to let the trust develop more.
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    Therapist going away and i've been in crisis for a month

    Yes, I'm very comfortable with this plan. She did indicate that she will be in and out of cell service areas so wouldn't necessarily be able to reply immediately. I'm okay with that. I know she gets how hard a time I'm having now and has made herself very available. I trust that she'll...
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