I think about my t way too much.

[erigby]

Help.
I can't stop thinking about my T.
I think about him very frequently.
Not romantically...yet...I hope it doesn't go there...
I find it distracting.
I text him all of the time. It never seems to be enough for me.
I just want to talk to him all of the time about everything.
I want to ask him so many questions.
I think this is typical and maybe even a sign things are going well.
I like him a lot.
I almost wish I had a T that I didn't care so much about.
My current T and I have a collegial relationship outside of our therapeutic relationship.
I know his family, we have many of the same acquaintances.
I love both of our relationships.
They both are good.
Except I am finding I get frustrated I can't return the care in the same way he gives me.
This is where my care for him frustrates me.
I had a T a couple of years ago that was good and I liked but did not really think about him at all outside of our session.
I find I am struggling between how good the relationship feels, how much I trust him, and my own desire to also be a caregiver to him (my profession is very much as a care giver).
I even find these feelings actually make me sad...and my heart hurts.

I have told him I love him.
He has told me he loves me.
We both are in professions of loving people so I do not interpret this as romantic... but damn I love him so much!
Help.

 

[agirls]

I can relate. With me it's because I feel so safe with her. And validated. I told her last week that I count the days between sessions, and then on a day I have a session, I count the hours until I get there. She said that's all okay. I'm dealing with major trauma and repressed memories of horrible incest surfacing so it's natural that I'd want to be where I'm safe. There is nothing romantic happening at all. I do find she fills a lot of voids left by the trauma and neglect. But I'm pretty up front with how attached I am.

 

[Deleted member 42665]

I am starting to feel this way but thankfully he doesn't allow texting, or I'd be in trouble. I do email him too much, or I think so, he say it is not... but my mind is going crazy lately and its annoying me :(