other - 4 years work required hypervigilence for risk management in fragile context on top of witness murder (home but living here for work), witness terrorist attack ( at work) coinciding with death of nephew to cancer ( aged 3), earthquake affecting 5 million ( home and work), flood effecting 20 million (home and work), landslide making lake - anticipating sudden breach ( home and work) military operations displacing 5 million (work), car accident ( home but just leaving for work) and all the exposure to dramatic breaking news that effects where I live ( work) . No more TV no more work - can't go back to that career