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    Gaslighting confusion

    I have recovering from PTSD now and I am I such a better head state but I still can be triggered. I know my partner gaslights me but it still confuses me and I also wonder if I gaslight too. Yesterday we had a better arguement, I went to sleep and he stayed up, when he came to bed he shut the...
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    Triggered by being inside to long.

    Today I had a total meltdown but i knew it was going to come. I felt my self esteem drop dramatically yesterday for no reason and today I ended up lashing out at my partner and having a huge emotion so meltdown . I noticed the consistency that this often happens when I have been in the house for...
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    Beginning to become stronger but still question my sanity

    Thank you for replying His excuses for messaging someone were that our relationship was in ruins, so it's not like there was really a relationship. It's just excuses because he can not take responsibility. Deep down I think he has a personality disorder, not that I think labelling is good but...
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    Beginning to become stronger but still question my sanity

    I am in a toxic relationship with someone who blames me for all our problems, we have been together 3 years . I am now a recovering PTSD survivor I would say. I have been to a really and caused alot of stress in the relationship but now I am regulated majority of the same and making big changes...
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    Dreamt about my ex who raped me again

    I wanted to ask about this also today , so t was really helpfully seeing other people go through the same thing. My dreams are usually triggered by me feeling shame at some point in the day. I hope it fades for you.
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    My PTSD made him hate me

    Me and my partner have been together 2years, he now hates me because of my PTSD. I have high emotions and break down occasionally. He has never been able to handle it. He says I will look back and be embarrassed about the way I am and wonder I did it. I don't know how to be any different but I...
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    Anger/ rage / shame

    I'm really struggling to deal with my anger. I'm irratated and often shouting at my partner and arguing. My chest feels like it wants to explode with pain. I tried explaining to my partner that I'm feeling this way and I need more compassion and care from him, but he is just incapable of doing...
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    Other Dyslexia

    Just wanting to see if there are people out there who understand how difficult it can be to be tidy when dyslexic and how to communicate this to a non dyslexic person. I do alot, such as today i worked 10-6, cooked dinner for my younger brothers, drove home to help my partner learn how to use...
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    Destructive

    Yes I can go to my family home, iv just got to motivate myself
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    Destructive

    Yeah we live together so it's been pretty constant and I'm totally dissociative now. When I'm like this I'm numb then I can flip at any moment which I hate. I try to control it but then I just loose consciousness in a way and do it anyway
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    Destructive

    Yeah we live together so it's been pretty constant I'm totally dissociative now
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    I just don’t know what to do anymore

    If you look for MA programs they are highly trained and very well supervised. You can register for an advanced trainee which means they will already have a good 300 hours under there belt.
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    Destructive

    Thanks for the quick response
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    Destructive

    My partner recently triggered me by getting very agressive with me and saying I deserve the abuse i had in my past relationship. He has spent the two days since then acting as if I'm the worst girlfriend. I'm now fully on a course to destruct everything , I'm angry and hurt and I can't stop...
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    Alone

    It sounds like you have many negative cycles, and a lot of negative self talk, I understand that this is hard to break when people reinforce it around you also, but like other have said you can not change other people (it sounds horrible what they do) but you have to figure out what you can do...
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    C-ptsd sufferer triggered by avoidant partner - anyone else out there?

    Hi, I have a very similar experience with my partner also, his main response when I’m unhappy is to avoid the situation either by not acknowledging what I’m sharing or getting obsessed with YouTube videos. Recently he has began trying to be more aware but he also dissociates. The best thing I...
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    New year

    I do often realise when I’m triggered and I do openly say it. I think a lot of problem is I don’t back down, if I feel offended I will say it. My partner on the other hand is the same so he will also when he is offended but he will then treat me as if I have done something terrible for about a...
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    Shame

    Thank you I am going to try these books. Thank you again for replying
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    New year

    I fully failed at being Calm at new yeat. I ruined my partners night and his friends. I don’t know how to now deal with the Shame. I did really try not to be affected and to stay calm but I didn’t in the end. I’m just an embarrassment and like my partner says I just make people miserable
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    New year

    I get slot of anxiety leading up to the New Year as I have had lots of bad experiences on this date. I'm feeling super anxious right now and imhave really bad headaches. I'm projecting more than usual on my partner. Being aware of it seems to make no difference, I will just forget in a moment...
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    Shame

    Thank your for this post. Im starting realise talking to other survivors really helps. And knowing other people understand really helps as I do often get conviced it’s just me.
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    Predicted spiraling

    I struggle with this also and as much as I try to not let it happen it's creeps up on me. The biggest coping skill I have is making my episodes further apart. So like the other person said don't focus on it happening, focus on the moment. What will you do in the next hour? How will you manage...
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    Shame

    I know I let things go a lot more because I feel like I'm so difficult to be with. But i knownits unacceptable. I'm also become scared of if I'll be able to handle the feelings. I thinktherapy is what I need more off Anxiety and hating myself im really struggling with my anxiety I had job...
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    Shame

    Thank you I will have a look at this book. Things are slightly better but I am not really getting better. I'm trying thought If he is shouting at me and saying mean things and I get upset and last out, he will then turn the whole arguement on me, tell me it's all my fault and I'm to blame for...
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    Shame

    Thank you
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