Predicted spiraling

[Punky143]

Tomorrow morning, it will begin. The dysregulation from rapidly increased anxiety. Tomorrow I have my appt with my T. After that, I'm seeing one of my closest friends before she departs to warmer weather until spring. And every year for 5 years my heart breaks but this year it seems especially hard. In addition to her leaving, my T has the week of xmas off. To go from twice weekly then nothing, its really hard. Then add all the chaos of xmas. Noise .noise. It's constant and its overwhelming but there's no escape either. Oh, let's add in my med provider taking off next week too.
I'm left feeling like I'm just floating, no one truly aware if I'm literally around or not. And not having anyone to talk to.

 

[Deleted member 541]

You have us to “talk” to. You’ve learned coping skills. Try not to think about what might happen. Try to stay a bit positive. I was heading into depression and gave myself a good kick in the ass, and decided I have a lot to be grateful for, that things really aren’t all that bad, it’s was just my negative thinking style falling into place.

 

[Faketan]

I struggle with this also and as much as I try to not let it happen it's creeps up on me. The biggest coping skill I have is making my episodes further apart. So like the other person said don't focus on it happening, focus on the moment. What will you do in the next hour? How will you manage your next 30minutes, take it step by step. Maybe carry a journal around to put down how your feeling. Also yess you have us. I know it's a lot easier to write that actually do but maybe it will help

 

[SeekingAfrica]

I also struggle with that. Negative thought spirals. When I know that something unavoidable that is hard for me is happening, it spirals me into a chain of negative self-thoughts and actions. To be honest I was never able to directly figure out how to regulate it. The only times direct momentary actions made impact on what I was doing was when I was generally putting regular effort to get better mentally, and eventually by being slightly better in general, momentary efforts actually made difference...did that make any sense? I know when you feel like that you wish for quick solution, but this is the best I know...As far as talking, yes, you can always talk on here.:)

 

[Punky143]

It's awful. Always has. I have DID with an array of many parts. All are very different, varying in age so despite some who understand it and would be able to explain it perfectly. But, the younger ones feel very different about it and struggle. So, its not just me and I'm ashamed. My very best friend left today too. Like I told my T today, its as if I'm floating around, not belonging to anyone and under no ones care. How is it possible to go from 2 sessions a week to nothing at all including contact? Because we've done it before? So is every time the same? Definitely not. While others go about their business, I'm trapped in my mind and left to deal with everything else. This sucks again.