thank you @arfie @LittleBigFoot and @JadeB.
I'm really trying to be gentle and tolerate toward myself. I have a lot of shame around this area of my life. I really didn't understand what it was. I have always done it a lot especially as a little kid. I have even done in front of people at times...
I feel really alone in this. I was molested and right after I masturbated for the first time in my life. It's kind of a pivotal moment when you do this for the first time. the entire experience has really messed with me. It took me a long time to tell my therapist I did this.
I asked my...
This was a big part of my problem with identifying triggers.
Basically telling myself "no it can't be that reason. That is silly it doesn't even make sense that I'm triggered by that" 🤦♂️
I started by just asking myself "what if you are correct and this is triggering you? Is there any reason...
Ya I have this happen. It's one of the worst parts of my ptsd. It only happens to me with 2 or 3 specific memorys. When it happens it's also an endless cycle. I get triggered then I get turned on then I get more triggered and so on.
Sorry if this is tmi but maybe you will relate and it will...
Thank you @Sideways @Friday and @Movingforward10
That's so cool that you did that sideways. it's incredible you taught yourself all of that.
Friday I'm 100% going to have to look into Dysgraphia. Because that sounds just like me. I had teacher stay for hours after school was over before...
I'm honestly really struggling at work right now because we have this new system and we have to write everything down. we have to write notes to each other, and write down everything we clean, and write down what other people should do.
I was molested by a kid at school he was in 6th grade and...
I relate to this so much your not alone.
I know when I get really badly triggered I feel like I'm constantly turned on for a while after. and then I get more triggered because I was obviously being tuned on by the same types of things that happened when I was molested.
so ya it's a cycle and it...
This is genius 👏 actually
Or at least it's fun to think about. It's something to try. Or at least just say I'm going to the bathroom. instead of "can" I go to the bathroom.
Being less passive about it would probably help.
As far as it being a different bathroom. It really depends on the...
Ya thank you good points. I'm really caught up in the fear it's causing me. But it's a basic human right and necessity.
I wish I had more people on my side but everyone else just gose along with it. There upset with me because I don't.
She's the type of person who would deny it. She would...
OK so I work at a fairly slow coffee shop. A lot of the time it is just me there. We don't normally take our 10 minute break. (This is illegal were I live but I can't do much to change it)
I am fine with this except for one problem. I'm being talked down to for even leaving for 2 minutes to use...
Ya being a teenager is already hard enough. Add on top of it feeling about sex that your peers are not having. It's easy to feel a lot of shame.
And it's so intense because at least for me I had already had this sexual thing happen to me at 6. I had already built this model of attraction around...
I relate to this so much. I remember being like 16 and having a panic attack because I found Emma Stone attractive.
I thought I was having a heart attack. At that point I felt so much shame about being gay that I thought ya this makes sense.
I was a full time missionary at the time. I was...
First off I love this thread its so sweet.
Also I could really use a hug. I just told a girl I really like I just wanted to be friends. I'm not really for a relationship my mental health just isn't there. Honestly hers isn't either.
It's really sad because we both really like eachother and...
I told my therapist once that I think about sex all the time. It feels like all I ever think about. The amount I think about this can't be normal. I think about it more then everyone else around me.
She said are you sure that is true? Or are all your sexual thoughts in bold rainbow colored...
Hey, I don't know if this comment will be of any help.
First of I am so sorry you are going through all of this I completely understand why it would feel like a curse. My dad has this. He is on disability I don't know if that is something you would want to try to do so you would at least have...
Nice to meet you crying lady. You have found a great place to vent!! Everyone here is super supportive and understanding.
I'm glad you found it. Welcome 🥰
Very different experience but you asked for experiences and I have one. this is incredibly hard for me to talk about.
I was 6. And I made a noise and he told me I was "going to get us both in trouble." I remember really trying to be quite because I was scared of him. I orgasimed and could not...
I don't know if this would be helpful or if it will even make sense. But I tell myself things about the current moment. then work back to a point my brain believes. Then work forward until I get to now.
For example
The year is 2021
My dogs name is ____
I work at ____
Before this I worked at...
Cool crafts are great 👍
I'm sure this probably won't be a new skill but it's my go to.
I ask myself questions about right now I ask what year is it? were do you live? Are you hungry or thirsty? What are 5 colors in the room? How many green things can you see? What is your dog's name...
Wow I'm so sorry you are going through this that sounds awful.
Good job taking care of yourself as best you can.
I understand covid is dangerous and really bad. It can cause the lung issues that your experiencing... But there has to be a better system because this can obviously be dangerous to...
Ok guys im not ok.
The last few days have been outside my window of tolerance.
I have really bad asthma. I have since I was a kid.
I have been having a hard time breathing because I'm working on a project that involves things like cutting wood and insulation. Stuff that can irritate your lungs...