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Oh okay... In my opinion nightmares might give us a message or like it have meaning as repetitive our trauma. I do experience a lot of stress yeah. Support my overall well being? I just survive. Survive with my chronic physical illness and my mental illness. Survive from new abuse everyday...

Hello thank you so much for taking the time to read my post and responding to it, i really appreciate it ☺️ I actually also try to find answers from myself as well. I mostly think this happen because i have BPD, and i never showed or received any kind of love since i was born to this world so i...

Thank you for the respond :) I am chronically ill and cant work, so no money no therapist. Thank you for the suggestion though. yeah it's definitely not his fault, only my fault. Thank you for the response though :) hope you have a nice day :) Indonesia :) Don't worry i never lie about what i...

In my other post i wasn't talking about this toxic friend. How is my behaviour toxic when i just want the best for him to not hurt himself again? That girl have cheated on him million times, lied to him, use him, and leave him. I just want the best for him but he never appreciate it? I'm sorry...

Hello thank you for taking the time to read my post and thank you for responding to it, i really appreciate it ☺️ Well... It's not that i don't want him to be in a relationship with anyone else, it's just that the girl he chose is a complete narcissist and he knew it but he won't leave her, he...

What could this nightmare mean? I had a nightmare last night. One of my brother try to kill my lovely cat, he choked her until she suffocated and dying. Its very scary. He tried to kill my lovely cat. He said it's my fault. He said i let her starve for 3 days in her cage. He said he did it...

Most of the time i get attached so fast with someone after just few days of talking. The feeling is so strong but comes with a big abandonment fear as well. Even when i'm actively avoid falling for a relationship. And usually people that i get attached too fast are always people that are too...

I took a nap this afternoon and had a nightmare about my toxic friend. The nightmare started when I moved out from my country, to my toxic friend’s country. I arrived in his high school and I saw a bunch of female students gathering in a park in front of the school. In my nightmare, my toxic...

Hello i'm sorry for late reply i havent been able to open this site.. I always stuck in DDOS thingy for whatever reason is 😔 Thank you for taking the time to read my post and responding to it, i really appreciate it ☺️ I completely agree with you, i definitely is still in the trauma. I don't...

I never thought nightmares can affect my life, until the recent years of my life. When i was kid, i always have interesting and strange dream. But they were never intense nightmare that would make me cry when i woke up. I used to have very interesting and strange dream that i can turned into a...

Thank you everyone for the reply, the story and the suggestion. I really appreciate it. I hope everyone having a good day :)

Hello! Thank you for the reply :) I agree with you, it's not impossible, it just rare. Oh yes! I definitely agree with you, many people mistake hard word and consistency as a luck, i myself have experienced people said such a thing to me. Yes a big luck like that is rare. Of course.. We can not...

Hi! thank you! i'm doing much better now ^-^ i broke up with him 3 months ago and i finally able to break the cycle!, and he have done some nasty things to get me back but he's failed! so now i'm safe! it felt like a dream! i didn't know i'd able to survive my by own! thanks to everyone who...

I've been having vivid nightmares every night for a year. They are so scary, vivid and often involved with people in my past traumatic experience. In my dreams i often meet people who have bullied me from kindergarten to highschool. In my dream, I often meet my abuser that already dead too. I...

hello thanks for the answer, i really appreciate it :) i think you're right, i pretty much answer my own question, but i'm too scared to accept it. i'm too scared to be alone and no one would care for me and listen to my problem anymore. But i'm not sure if the love i feel for that person is...

i see.. i understand.. thank you. i hope you and your spouse always happy forever after!!

thank you for your advice :) i will think about the therapist thingy, these days many therapist are not good and mean and have low empathy and sided with abusers so it makes me scared. but one day maybe i will find a good therapist. i will concentrate on getting well. hmmm i will try that, it...

thank you for your advice and respond, i really appreciate it. and i will think about it.. i will try to focus on myself and my own happiness. but it's also hard, i only talk to people online because i can't talk to anyone in my country and i'm tired and just want to isolate myself and do the...

Not really, but everything will be better one day! Thank you for your concern ^-^

Why i can never love anyone? Is it because of all the childhood abuse i have been through? everyone taken advantage of me? people leaving me? my family never love me? no one ever love me truly? is it because of on going trauma that i have to deal everyday? is it because low self-esteem and low...

I ran away

I hope you are!! you only deserve to be happy.. I'm so sorry... but it still doesn't excuse his bad behaviour towards you though.. I agree trauma bond really is a thing. I guess thats what i feel toward my family and my fake friends. they might hurt me till i bled and i still don't want the...

Thank you so much for saying this. I really appreciate this. I finally managed to let him go for good and find a better coping mechanism and have tried to make myself busy to distract my mind. Thank you you are really helping seriously. i felt much better when i read this. I'm sorry for late...

I'm not sure if i can survive any of this anymore. My world has crashed and everyone has taken everything from me that there's nothing left in me. I feel completely miserable, confused, lonely, alone, angry, upset, sad, anxious, panic. It's all a mix of bad stuff. I really can't survive any of...

First of all thank you so much for your respond, i really appreciate it :) I'm so sorry about what you've been through :( i can relate on the violent ex and how hard it is to be with someone like that, especially as a victim of abuse, we tend to realize the signs too late. It must be hard for...