So I went out with friends for dinner tonight and I guess I should be happy I can put on a good face when I'm really just completely broken inside. I was driving to dinner and one friend asked me how I was doing and said that with all I've been through this year, I put off such a positive attitude. She said if she were in my shoes she would "kick some asses". I don't think I've done a good job holding anything together.
This wonderful year included: going through a divorce neither of us wanted, he wanted kids and I didn't. He knew from day one and said he was ok with it and then changed his mind. I went off on him one day and told him it was over and I wanted a divorce and to go live with his dad. I had to leave my job to move back home with my family since I wasn't able to afford living on my own. Had to do a voluntary repossession, almost got evicted twice, and am now dealing with a friend with ptsd who all I want to do is spend some time with, but who is isolating more than ever now that it's holiday time and he's dealing with his therapist moving to another state. Hopefully 2014 will be way better, don't know how much more I can deal with.
This wonderful year included: going through a divorce neither of us wanted, he wanted kids and I didn't. He knew from day one and said he was ok with it and then changed his mind. I went off on him one day and told him it was over and I wanted a divorce and to go live with his dad. I had to leave my job to move back home with my family since I wasn't able to afford living on my own. Had to do a voluntary repossession, almost got evicted twice, and am now dealing with a friend with ptsd who all I want to do is spend some time with, but who is isolating more than ever now that it's holiday time and he's dealing with his therapist moving to another state. Hopefully 2014 will be way better, don't know how much more I can deal with.
