5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Anrish]

Thanks for the umbrella @C j ! :) *shoves away your rain clouds*:ninja:

 

[NatBird]

Take your time

I am continuously being gifted and supported

I am afraid to be good at something

I am afraid to not be good at something

I might be getting better at regulating

Why did the trauma therapist have a monarch butterfly print box in her room

 

[sedna]

Take your time



Probably the caterpillar / cocoon / butterfly equation to therapy.

 

[sedna]

I'm thinking that NatBirds question was probably metaphorical and didnt need an answer.

I dont know why I'm still at my office there's nothing to do.

I'm wondering how obnoxious I get with my codependency without realizing I'm doing it everyday ( like the monarch non question )

I think that I realize most of my days at home and at work revolve around arguing with other people on other peoples behalf. I know that I still avoid confrontation when I'm actually the subject of the confrontation.... dont want anyone to figure that out.

I wonder how close I am to being too old to realistically create a happy life for myself in any kind of real way.

 

[NatBird]

I'm ugly, hopeless and unlovable

I need to just live with that

Sometimes I really hate my cat

Why aren't I up meditating straight away

I don't want to go out at all

I'm stuck and giving up on getting unstuck makes more sense than anything else. Anything else requires effort, effort requires energy. I'm deeply tired

Perhaps this malaise is related to working on trauma time line yesterday

When will I get my energy back

Why am I waiting for it to come back, I need to create it

I hate this bullshit and could sleep and hide for the rest of my living death

This is morbid, dramatic and beyond five thoughts

 

[sedna]

I'm ugly, hopeless and unlovable

I need to just live with that

Sometimes I really hate my cat

Why ar...

You have no idea how badly I want to fix every one of those feelings for you.

I suppose answering a metaphorical question that wasn't being asked was underestimating you,
but throwing that many painful situations down as bait is no fair! :x3:

 

[Missycat]

@NatBird @coco9 :hug::hug:

 

[Deleted member 29920]

I'm so sad

I don't want to be me

Don't want to be human

Detest the people who traumatised me

Why is life so awful?

 

[NatBird]

I'm so sad

I don't want to be me

Don't want to be human

Detest the people who traumatised me

Why is...

@C j Send a **hug** if welcome. Hope you can be gentle with you today.

 

[NatBird]

You have no idea how badly I want to fix every one of those feelings for you.

I suppose answering a meta...

@coco9
This isn't bait. I find that description of the thoughts I'm having mildly upsetting.

I sense you were trying to let me know you care - that is much appreciated.

 

[Silver.]

So much sadness today *hugs to all of you*

 

[NatBird]

Thanks @Silver.
must be sommat in the skies..