5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Tinyflame]

1. I think my decrease in vape juice (nicotine) is getting to me.
2. One reason is I've got a feeling 'something must be terribly wrong'. Of course, maybe something is terribly wrong...? :(
3. I've also got a rash.
4. But I've had little sleep. I can't organize thoughts.
5. But I also get the distinct feeling that the reality is I have to go out on a limb & risk, if I want to try to get better, or give up. Either commit to trying without knowing 'how' I can possibly heal or get better, & just as I am, or just give up on it entirely.

 

[NatBird]

Thinking...

I'm so lucky to be in a state to notice having a good day:)

I'm sure that a significant part of my healing is through body work/releasing done today

I should have went to see my teachers

I wonder if my ex is reading my trauma diary

Will I sleep tonight

I love my cat

 

[Tinyflame]

1. More storms forecasted. :( :nailbiting:
2. My poor dog, they must have really done a number on her. :( :cry:
3. I'm too afraid to try, probably. :(

 

[ladee]

No your not @Junebug, you are talking yourself into it... no giving up... don't disappear five minutes before the miracle happens.

 

[RavenGirl]

Was Feeling anxious! Got a flat tire driving on the highway today! My car is one that doesn't have a spare...

Feeling loved. Hubby was able to leave work to rescue me. :inlove:

Feeling Broke financially. Couldn't match the tire, so had to buy all 4 new ones $$$$!! :eek::sour:

Feeling safer, got my pepper spray for when I walk and bike by myself. :happy:

Feeling exhausted. Enough excitement for the day for me. :sleep:

 

[Tinyflame]

1. Glad you're safe @RavenGirl . :hug:
2.Oh @ladee . :wideeyed: It's so hard to 'argue' ( ;) ) against what you say, because you say such beautiful things. Sigh. :notoirthy: :hug: :hug:
3. I know why I had/ have a meltdown with the loss of the foster dog etc (way back), & other things where in I feel either not entitled or toxic. I feel like I killed 2 of my dogs. I didn't, technically of course, I would die for them. But one died because of my inattention/ crelessness or ptsd/ selfishness, one because I didn't have the money. Just a baby, he wouldn't let me go, attached his nails to my sweater. A woman rubbed it in, said "You know he'll be put down because of you" (I did not cause his illness, he was supposed to be not ill, I couldn't afford the treatment (which was likely to be successful.). I was already horrified & silently bawling.. :( :cry: Horrors. :( In fact, come to think of it, another Emergency vet said I must have taken incredible care of him, because most would die of it at that young age. :( I feel like a terrible person. :(

 

[ladee]

@Junebug, there is not a human alive that has been perfect in all situations... if you are waiting until all the stars and planets line up just right, or for a magic note written just for you, to say when to start on 'self forgiveness', it's not gonna happen.... so the lady was a jerk... she said a very insensitive thing... I could call you a 'chair'... does it make you one??? Of course not... so , it's up to you to see just what kind of 'pay off' you are getting from not doing self forgiveness... it's a process, like everything we have to do to get healthier....
If you are unsure what I mean by 'pay off', PM me, we will talk about it... won't hijack this thread... but did want to address this with you.... please PM me if you want to talk... I am here for you to share and explain... lots of love to you !!!

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @ladee . :hug:

 

[RavenGirl]

@Junebug, thank you. I'm actually glad I'm ok too! I might not of agreed with that a little over a year ago, but I've come a long way Baby!! :D:tup:

Also, I think you are a good person and I don't say that to just anyone. :happy: You need to be kind to yourself, you deserve it. ♡:inlove:

 

[NatBird]

What does it mean

I'll go for a run

I need to prepare

The mind is brillant (this is truely a rare thought for me)

Oh no, what if it disappears now I've said that

Um, it's nice and early:)

 

[Panda Bear]

Thank you all for the birthday love.

1. I'm so sad, that I could just curl up and sob. It's hard to be alive today.
2. It's quiet and I'm alone with a monster headache
3. I miss my husband who is working hard
4. My walk was cut to short.

 

[Lionheart]

I have a healthier body image than I have had in many years.
I am what I am and that's all what I am!!!
I want to move to a medical marijuana state and get a green card!!
Energy never dies it just changes form.
I am worried about the fact that I am promiscuous, but will deal with it.