Fitnessbunny85
New Here
Hi there,
I'm new to this forum and would love to connect with some of you and share with you this journey called LIFE!
I'm a 30 year old female diagnosed with PTSD 2 years ago. I was sexually abused as a child by my brother and only recalled it for the first time 3 years ago when I uncovered my partners infidelity. It was through uncovering this infidelity that my mind recalled the earlier child abuse, crazily enough, I had managed to store the memories away for 22 years and even more so.. that very brother was my best friend in life.. that was also the time when PTSD reared its head and I started experiencing the symptoms of PTSD. It was such a painstakingly awful time in my life, the hurt was indescribable, my reality had been shattered.
I went from a vivacious, positive, fun loving, strong minded and overall happy person to someone who was consumed by rage, anger, hurt, volatility and viewed life as so meaningless and bleak. The contrast in character was so sudden and so painstakingly scary, I didn't know what was happening to me.
Enter, my current counsellor.... after the 5th attempt I found my current therapist who diagnosed me with PTSD in the first session... and just like a corny sitcom tv series.. the skies opened up and the sun shone down... (only for a little while =) I finally had a answer to what I was going through... I finally had a purpose to keep fighting to reclaim what I had lost, to find the will to see all the good things in life.
And here I am today, about 2 years later after being diagnosed. The journey has been filled with highs and lows. PTSD has snuck up behind me a few times and bitten me in the a#s just when I thought I had a handle on it all. Throughout my downfall and low times, there has been on thing I have been able to count on and trust the entire time, and that has been nature - feeling the samd and water has been liberating for me and exercise, it has been my therapy and a safe place for me and is one of the most important things to me, not for shallow or vain reasons, purely as a tool for my mindset, my mentality, my healing.
I yearn for support and connections to likeminded people who understand this journey and really hope to be able to talk to some of you through here, please feel free to say hello would love to hear from you, especially today
I'm new to this forum and would love to connect with some of you and share with you this journey called LIFE!
I'm a 30 year old female diagnosed with PTSD 2 years ago. I was sexually abused as a child by my brother and only recalled it for the first time 3 years ago when I uncovered my partners infidelity. It was through uncovering this infidelity that my mind recalled the earlier child abuse, crazily enough, I had managed to store the memories away for 22 years and even more so.. that very brother was my best friend in life.. that was also the time when PTSD reared its head and I started experiencing the symptoms of PTSD. It was such a painstakingly awful time in my life, the hurt was indescribable, my reality had been shattered.
I went from a vivacious, positive, fun loving, strong minded and overall happy person to someone who was consumed by rage, anger, hurt, volatility and viewed life as so meaningless and bleak. The contrast in character was so sudden and so painstakingly scary, I didn't know what was happening to me.
Enter, my current counsellor.... after the 5th attempt I found my current therapist who diagnosed me with PTSD in the first session... and just like a corny sitcom tv series.. the skies opened up and the sun shone down... (only for a little while =) I finally had a answer to what I was going through... I finally had a purpose to keep fighting to reclaim what I had lost, to find the will to see all the good things in life.
And here I am today, about 2 years later after being diagnosed. The journey has been filled with highs and lows. PTSD has snuck up behind me a few times and bitten me in the a#s just when I thought I had a handle on it all. Throughout my downfall and low times, there has been on thing I have been able to count on and trust the entire time, and that has been nature - feeling the samd and water has been liberating for me and exercise, it has been my therapy and a safe place for me and is one of the most important things to me, not for shallow or vain reasons, purely as a tool for my mindset, my mentality, my healing.
I yearn for support and connections to likeminded people who understand this journey and really hope to be able to talk to some of you through here, please feel free to say hello would love to hear from you, especially today
