Ah, withdrawals. We meet again.

[woodsy1]

Yes, that is the term and it is very helpful for me, too. Even me talking about my sister stuff in here recently has an element of that because when I discuss things here, it kind of preps my brain for what is to come with her and helps me process what has already happened. Since we went through a lot of trauma together, we trigger one another and so having people who get the issues around to talk to before I react to my trauma directly with her has also been a big help.


Thank you. That is so nice to hear.



I hope it went well.

We're going to look for some hiking today in accordance with my physical therapist's suggestion. Hubby is home for the week for the holiday break, so I'm hoping I can get him sucked into regular exercise, too. It's good for everyone.

Hiya!

My walk went very well, thanks. I spoke with a few folks in the mall and actually highly enjoyed it! I'm experiencing that more and more.

I came home and learned a couple love songs on my keyboard. I played and sang them in memory of my love lost to PTSD last year. Maybe singing and playing was therapuetic? I enjoyed it anyhow.

It stirred up feelings of love. I haven't felt those in a while. It's good to know the capacity is still there! Lol.

I recorded my "performance". A little ways down the road I can go back and listen to myself. Maybe I will get a good laugh.

I'm glad you get to spend some quality time with your hubby. Enjoy your hike! Make every moment count. Time with loved ones is precious.

I hope you have a great day!
Woodsy

 

[RussellSue]

I played and sang them in memory of my love lost to PTSD last year.

Oh, Lord - that too?? I am sorry.

That's so hard. I buried two fiances after starting treatment. It's pretty awful.

I'm glad you get to spend some quality time with your hubby. Enjoy your hike! Make every moment count. Time with loved ones is precious.

Thanks! We're waiting for the snow to melt which may mean that we are picking a bad day for a first hike but we'll try it, anyway.

Boy how I know about that last part. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and start crying just because he is still there. What a sap!


I hope you enjoy your day, as well.

 

[woodsy1]

Oh, Lord - that too?? I am sorry.

That's so hard. I buried two fiances after starting treatment. It's pretty awful.

Yeah. It was my own fault. I was just beginning my recovery from 6 years of hellish torment and social isolation after 18 years of spiritual abuse and 12 years of spousal abuse.

I went on a party spree, thinking I was just going to try and enjoy what ever life I had left. I had zero self awareness and was living in denial and for the moment. I fell for a gal who also has her own baggage. We had some great times together and everyone thought we were a perfect match.

It turned out we are similar to you and your sis. The gal leans toward fight and I towards flight. Not a good combo!

My avoidance kicked in hard. Three strikes and she was out. We are still tentative friends via social media. She has gotten some therapy at my suggestion. I am getting therapy now too.

Life is messy! So weird for me coming out of a very controlling environment where black and white thinking is the ingrained norm.

I am becoming much more self aware now. I'm learning to see the grey. And I am more realistic about my limitations and how that affects others.

It is a journey! Thanks for letting me share of it with you. As you know, it helps so much just to be able to talk it out.

Thanks! We're waiting for the snow to melt which may mean that we are picking a bad day for a first hike but we'll try it, anyway.

Have FUN! Make the most of it. We only get one life to live.

Boy how I know about that last part. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and start crying just because he is still there. What a sap!

That's awesome! You think you are a sap?!? Sometimes I wake up and cry because my little dog is right there with me through it all. Lol.

I hope you enjoy your day, as well.

Thanks. So far, so good. As yesterday was a "high" day, I didn't sleep well. I may lay back down for a while. We'll see what happens.

Have a good one!