Am I A "mooch"/(beggar)?

[trying2movefwd]

So, some of you know that I will be getting Social Security Disability benefits. Today I'm having a really good day. Yesterday I was struggling with S/I and SH. I have extreme downs (not extreme ups) and I never know when they will hit..anyway my diagnosis are PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, Severe Major Depression recurrent, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Anemia, Subclinical hyperthyroidism, and dyslexia(I've overcome dyslexia in a lot of ways but lots of numbers and letters together I get mixed up. Today I am feeling good. I am feeling like a "mooch". I tell myself 16 hospitalizations(about half outpatient) in 2 years, feeling suicidal almost every day for two years should clue me in that I am "sick". I guess the stigma of mental illness though has me feeling guilty like I ought to be able to work. Let alone I lost three jobs due to my mental health....I guess typing it out here is helping me understand..I'm not a "mooch", this is a real thing. I wish in a way it was visible. Ugh Just trying to come to terms with this.

 

[Killashandra]

You are not a mooch.

Personally I have been trying to get disability benefits for my anxiety and they have basically said that with PTSD I would be better to be forced into the workplace. .. I am still employed, so I don't understand, and am about to se a psychiatrist for help with me and this matter.

They have no idea what mentally ill people really have to go through and it makes me mad ... it's no wonder most of the homeless are classified as mentally ill, the government doesn't help them the way they help people with a physical disability, and now the government has put up some very difficult legislation that we must satisfy before being approved.
You have been approved which means you do tick all the boxes. Hence.. you are not a mooch but a person with a real disability regardless of Wether people can see that disability or not.

Don't think badly of yourself. You are just getting what your entitled to.

 

[PTSDfree]

Nah. Think of the gov't insiders who make millions off of Americans' tax dollars every year... Getting disability (especially when you need it) is nothing in the grand scheme of things

 

[anonymous]

You're definitely not a mooch

Please remember you have a mental illness, it's not your fault and you are a valuable human being :hug:

 

[trying2movefwd]

Thanks @anonymous

 

[Unknown Victim]

They basically told me I'm disable but not enough. Be a dishwasher the rest of you miserable life.

 

[trying2movefwd]

Im sorry @Unknown Victim

 

[Muted]

They basically told me I'm disable but not enough. Be a dishwasher the rest of you miserable lif...

If only they truly understood the long term generational value of wholey healing and investing in one individual.