Anger/panic/anxiety

[xXRockFiendXx]

Sigh.
I get so confused with PTSD. I don't know if I'm angry because I'm angry or I'm angry because I'm triggered, or I'm angry because I'm exhausted, or I'm angry because I'm lonely, or if I'm lonely because of the PTSD, or if I'm angry because people are being insensitive or if I'M being insensitive because the wound that is PTSD just hurts so bad and seems so big--
I hate how misunderstood I feel because of all of this.
I hate that I don't know if I'm more irritable because I'm addicted to things, or if I'm irritable because I'm triggered, but the fact that I'm addicted to numb the triggered--
blehhhhh.
Just blehhhhh

 

[Esterio]

hi there
I get angry for all the reasons you have listed above. The one that gets to me the easiest and the fastest is to get lost and frustrated in conversation. I guess I can't believe I am not capable of carrying on a conversation at times. I do best Isolated away from places and people so that I don't have to deal with them. It is hard to deal with.
Addicted to things drugs and or alcohol. It is catch 22. You are addicted because of what has happen to you and you are trying to self medicate. Everything you have written about above can and will make you irritable. I think I have been misunderstood more than I have been understood
Peace be safe

 

[Muted]

It could be a combination of those things...

 

[Stephernovas]

I'm struggling with the idea of exactly how guarded I am. I'm starting to think my level of self-protection is WAY higher than I even realized. I've had my therapist comment on it, as well as many others. I always just thought I was misunderstood, so I totally get where you are coming from. I tried to consider what 'normal' was, and how I could figure out some indicators to help me gauge exactly where I'm at intensity-wise.

 

[Deleted member 541]

What I think would help, is that you really dig deep within your trauma and figure out exactly where the anger IS coming from. Are you in therapy? Are you working on your trauma??? What types of trauma therapy have you tried???