Anxiety Over Something I Love To Do

[Iam]

Has anyone here all of a sudden experienced a panic attack or anxiety over doing something they normally love? I mean with no real trauma associated with it?

That happened to me today. I love to ride my horses. Had an last minute invitation to go riding and went into a total panic attack. The only think I can figure is that there was a upheavel the last time I was going to ride which really upset me. Is it association? God, riding is one of the things I do to calm myself and get a grip. Now I am afraid I won't be able to ride again. This sucks. I can see how people become agoraphobic now.

 

[James B.]

My instincts tell me this will pass. Kind of hard to figure these things out, you are probably right about the upheaval. Still, you're an experienced rider, am betting this is only a temporary setback. It's good you could analyze it, IMHO. I bet you are back in the saddle soon.


Take care, James B.

 

[Jawn]

I agree with James. You will be back on your horse soon. Hang in there Iam.

Jawn

 

[intothelight]

Hi Iam,

I have had the same thing happen to me and had to dissect the experience to figure out what was causing the anxiety. I doubt it is riding, but could it be the company? Or is it riding with someone since the last one created turmoil?

Once you can isolate the cause, it is a lot easier to deal with.

Wishing you the best.

ITL

 

[Unhinged]

Maybe it is the company, like ITL said.

How does the idea of riding alone sound? Does that thought panic you as well?

 

[Iam]

Thanks for the thoughts Unhinged. I do hope you are wrong as I love my friends and riding is one of our favorite activities together. Actually instead of riding we all got together that day to pick blackberries, bake pies and play cards. They are a little at odds with eachother right now and tension between them does affect me. We also had an incident a couple of weeks before when we were supposed to go riding and there was a big blow up due to my not being able to go. I haven't riden since then so I can't really say. I have gotten together with the friend serveral times since then and we are fine. Some tension, but we are both going thru a lot right now. I was supposed to ride with another friend tomorrow, but we had to cancel due to rain ;o( I know that when I have been down with the horses I have been tempted to throw on a bridal and just jump on bareback to go for a ride. Probably should do that as it would be good for me. I love my horses and riding is an important reCREATION time for me so I am sure that I will work thru it. Just weird that it happened. Seems I am hypersensitive to any tension and it is spilling over into everything. God I HATE anxiety!

 

[Unhinged]

Iam,

I'm sorry you're going thru all of this but your posts have got me thinking a lot about some old horses I've had the joy to spend my life with. When you say you were thinking about just grabbing a bridal and going bareback that reminds me of Vaquero (the mustang i had) atleast 4 afternoons a week I'd go down and take him out bareback to one of the only spots around with green grass and shade (back in New Mexico). He'd graze about and I'd either lay on his back or under the tree with a book. True peace was being with that old guy.

 

[Iam]

Well, the crisis seems to be over. I went riding with my good friend yesterday and we had a great time. She road one of my horses as hers had pulled a shoe. Both of my horses loaded and unloaded fine. Well except for one little mishap when we first unloaded which left me shaking, but not after we got home. So crisis over. The horses are back to loading ok and it felt great to get out on them. So what the heck was up with that anxiety before???? So glad it is gone!

We saw a couple of really cool mushrooms. I took pix with her phone and uploaded them on another thread. For some reason they only show as attachments. Am going to try again here.

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[James B.]

Thanks for posting the neat pictures, Iam. :smile: