Hey there everyone. I'm a 24 year old female in the Austin Texas area looking for some other females close by that I can relate and talk to. It's been a long time since I have had a close friend, it seems like I end up frightening off people with things like my panic attacks/flashbacks. Recently it's been pretty difficult for me, a lot of stressful things have been going on in my life and it's been setting off my PTSD.
A big thing for me has been my regression into childhood, I guess I have always been very child-like but things like Disney movies and goofing around at the park seem much more fun than drinking and clubbing. I get scared a lot, about a lot of different things, it's pretty embarrassing and people are rarely ever understanding. For example: driving, talking on the phone to strangers, big crowds, small closed-in spaces, beautiful women, handsome men, ordering food, movies with sexual content, visiting my family, meeting other people's family, being touched, being stared at, being judged, staying the night at other people's homes, and various other things.
I was raised in a very strict and cult-like religious family....brainwashed really. So I learned everything the hard way because my family sheltered me from everything...and I mean EVERYTHING. The culture shock of starting public school was traumatizing, the relentless bullying was traumatizing, being molested by my older brother's friends when I didn't know what sex was, being raped by a person I trusted, having a loving relationship turn into psychical abuse and going through a miscarriage.
There are other things too but I'll just leave it at those for now. I'd love to have a text buddy or e-mail. It'd be cool to eventually meet in person, I think it would be nice to have someone that can relate to me on some level to walk through life with. We could be each others support, friend and ear. Thank you, hope to hear from someone.
A big thing for me has been my regression into childhood, I guess I have always been very child-like but things like Disney movies and goofing around at the park seem much more fun than drinking and clubbing. I get scared a lot, about a lot of different things, it's pretty embarrassing and people are rarely ever understanding. For example: driving, talking on the phone to strangers, big crowds, small closed-in spaces, beautiful women, handsome men, ordering food, movies with sexual content, visiting my family, meeting other people's family, being touched, being stared at, being judged, staying the night at other people's homes, and various other things.
I was raised in a very strict and cult-like religious family....brainwashed really. So I learned everything the hard way because my family sheltered me from everything...and I mean EVERYTHING. The culture shock of starting public school was traumatizing, the relentless bullying was traumatizing, being molested by my older brother's friends when I didn't know what sex was, being raped by a person I trusted, having a loving relationship turn into psychical abuse and going through a miscarriage.
There are other things too but I'll just leave it at those for now. I'd love to have a text buddy or e-mail. It'd be cool to eventually meet in person, I think it would be nice to have someone that can relate to me on some level to walk through life with. We could be each others support, friend and ear. Thank you, hope to hear from someone.
