Back into therapy

[Pauline]

Making the leap to go back into therapy it's frustrating because I know I was sexually abused when I was younger but I can't remember ( I have slight memories but I don't know if they are real or not so I don't know how to cope) I feel like my inner child is still protecting me from the person I believe who has done it and eventually everything will come out for her but he is still momentarily in my life and I if it is him I am scared because I know it will be devastating for my family I really want to talk to my psychiatrist about this but I don't know where to begin this little girl inside of me is doing her best to protect me as long as possible but I also can't just go accusing if I don't have solid memories to back it up I tried telling my mother once about this situation but she wanted evidence all I know is the feelings strongly presented in my body

How do you get your memories of the abuse back if they are so blocked and still suffer from dissociative states.

How do you break free from the person that isn't healthy for your wellbeing but still want a relationship with your siblings

How do you talk to your psychiatrist about this issue even though I think he already has a slight idea.

How do you become stronger within yourself so that you can face your abuse and have less dissociative states blocking your recovery.

How do you get people on your side to trust and believe you as this part i am terrified to speak about it in fear of something worse happening to me

I have stopped cutting to try and face what I am feeling but this is proving to be more difficult then expected.

 

[digger]

Well done on getting back to therapy @Pauline, I know it's been a difficult step for you to take, but hopefully a positive one in the long run

How do you get your memories of the abuse back if they are so blocked and still suffer from dissociative states.

How do you break free from the person that isn't healthy for your wellbeing but still want a relationship with your siblings

How do you talk to your psychiatrist about this issue even though I think he already has a slight idea.

How do you become stronger within yourself so that you can face your abuse and have less dissociative states blocking your recovery.

How do you get people on your side to trust and believe you as this part i am terrified to speak about it in fear of something worse happening to me

I know you've thrashed some of these questions out quite a bit in threads here, I think it's great that you're feeling more ready to take some of them to therapy now. They are all good things to work on.

Is it a therapist you've worked with before, or is it someone new you'll be working with?

 

[EveHarrington]

How do you get your memories of the abuse back if they are so blocked and still suffer from dissociative states.

You work on healing in general, and as your mind/body feel more safe, your mind may then release additional memories. Its never a good idea to try and force memories out. There's a reason why you don't remember right now.

How do you break free from the person that isn't healthy for your wellbeing but still want a relationship with your siblings

Do you live with this person?

How do you talk to your psychiatrist about this issue even though I think he already has a slight idea.

You could try writing it down so that you are clear about what you're struggling with.

How do you become stronger within yourself so that you can face your abuse and have less dissociative states blocking your recovery.

One step at a time, working on building coping skills, grounding skills, self soothing skills, etc. Building a support network of people you can trust. Becoming stronger may take much time.

How do you get people on your side to trust and believe you as this part i am terrified to speak about it in fear of something worse happening to me

If people are truly on your side, they will believe you, they will not doubt you.