Nebulustrix
Silver Member
Dreams are a creation, yes, BUT... they are a creation from our subconscious- the house for our memories and feelings. It is not so much something that we want or desire but a reflection of our current state of emotional health. This makes them a great tool for discussing in therapy.
My worst dreams, after my trauma, were terrible simply because of the amount of fear I was feeling. The dreams themselves were fairly simple and not really a reliving of my experiences. Mine were dreams of being chased/followed by my abuser, and not where he was threatening any kind of violence. He was just there and I wanted to get away. Most of them, he didn't even seem to recognize me, but I recognized him and was too terrified to be near him. I'd try to flee, and somehow, he'd always be right there.
I knew, from these dreams, that my greatest fear was FACING my fears. The nightmares/dreams stopped with one in which I did finally face him down, and did so by shooting him with a shotgun. At first, that bothered me deeply for much the same reason you're dream seems to be bothering you. I felt as though it meant I wanted to shoot and kill my ex. However, it wasn't really about the shotgun or about him. It was about facing and "killing" my fears.
Hope that makes sense and that it helps.
My worst dreams, after my trauma, were terrible simply because of the amount of fear I was feeling. The dreams themselves were fairly simple and not really a reliving of my experiences. Mine were dreams of being chased/followed by my abuser, and not where he was threatening any kind of violence. He was just there and I wanted to get away. Most of them, he didn't even seem to recognize me, but I recognized him and was too terrified to be near him. I'd try to flee, and somehow, he'd always be right there.
I knew, from these dreams, that my greatest fear was FACING my fears. The nightmares/dreams stopped with one in which I did finally face him down, and did so by shooting him with a shotgun. At first, that bothered me deeply for much the same reason you're dream seems to be bothering you. I felt as though it meant I wanted to shoot and kill my ex. However, it wasn't really about the shotgun or about him. It was about facing and "killing" my fears.
Hope that makes sense and that it helps.
