I get it.
my school job was at a photo processing place, I worked the paper and negative processes so my life was in the dark room and i was fine with entire weeks with maybe 20% of my life in light of any kind.
now, if I have unknowns in the dark I have to explore the area before my mind lets go of the constant 'WHATS OUT THERE?"
I think it is related to my first responder crap, ironicly my biggest aversion to the darkness is looking for stuff in the dark with a flashlight. I cannot seem to do it without remembering some of the things I have found in the dark and that I don't want to do that again.
while travelling, I try to get to a motel before dark so I know whats around me without exporing the dark, I take my last looks around the house before sundown when possible, and i have motion detecting lights and cameras all over the place. i sleep with a night light. It isn't that hard to prepare for sundown everyday with a quick look around (when I get home from work before dark, 45th parallel here) and having motion lights gets me the rest of the way.
I get it @bellbird, it's a bit embarassing to say you are afraid of the dark but at some level I think we are all wired that way and our lizard brains would like it very much if we would just go to sleep at sundown, in a secure and comfortable place. I think of it as "consciousness of the unseen". Not so much scared as forewarned and aware that there is stuff out there beyond our vision.
my school job was at a photo processing place, I worked the paper and negative processes so my life was in the dark room and i was fine with entire weeks with maybe 20% of my life in light of any kind.
now, if I have unknowns in the dark I have to explore the area before my mind lets go of the constant 'WHATS OUT THERE?"
I think it is related to my first responder crap, ironicly my biggest aversion to the darkness is looking for stuff in the dark with a flashlight. I cannot seem to do it without remembering some of the things I have found in the dark and that I don't want to do that again.
while travelling, I try to get to a motel before dark so I know whats around me without exporing the dark, I take my last looks around the house before sundown when possible, and i have motion detecting lights and cameras all over the place. i sleep with a night light. It isn't that hard to prepare for sundown everyday with a quick look around (when I get home from work before dark, 45th parallel here) and having motion lights gets me the rest of the way.
I get it @bellbird, it's a bit embarassing to say you are afraid of the dark but at some level I think we are all wired that way and our lizard brains would like it very much if we would just go to sleep at sundown, in a secure and comfortable place. I think of it as "consciousness of the unseen". Not so much scared as forewarned and aware that there is stuff out there beyond our vision.
