Been Wanting To Give Up But Haven't

[fuzzypenguin]

It's been awhile since I've last talked in the chat or even posted in here. But I'm beginning to think I should have at least looked around instead of laying in bed day and night and avoid being social. I've been having anxiety attacks weekly, and melting down and wanting to give up. I've talked to my boyfriend about it-well about feeling low & wanting to self harm. I'm staying strong though. Partly for him and partly for myself, in no order. I haven't seen a counselor since early May and I'm doing, well I'm still here. I've been bouncing back and forth about going back to see one. There's a new one I could see that's very close or drive about 20 more minutes to see an old one I havent seen in about a year. I don't know what to do. Right now I'm dealing with a cold I got from my boyfriend who isn't even sick anymore. He had a sore throat, which I had too, but now it's congestion and I just feel terrible. I've been drinking plenty of tea and soup but still loosing weight. I don't know what else to say, but I'm struggling. And I need to start reaching out again for help.

 

[joeylittle]

@fuzzypenguin - it's really nice to see you again, even though it's because you are struggling. I'm glad you dropped in. And honestly - my opinion is, try the new one. You kind of know what to expect from the old one, so that's what you can be measuring the new one against. But really, it also doesn't matter too much right now, probably. Just getting yourself into some structured help is going to be a very, very good first step.

I'm glad you haven't given up.

 

[kona355]

@Link Removed

joey's right - and I'm glad too you're reaching out.

I disappeared for a while earlier this year and it's been helpful being back on the forums.

I hope you don't quit or give up.

 

[void]

@fuzzypenguin

Props to u for reaching out!

Hard, ik.:hug:

Why are you avoiding the T.?

We all avoid. I do not judge you.

Search for the cause.

What will you not face?

There is fight left in you.:)

We believe in you:tup::hug:

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

I'm in a similar place I think------impossible to get out of bed. I realize I need to turn things around so I'm to the point of planning out my days (tomorrow is all scheduled!)-----I'm pushing myself forward. I've added in more supplements, working on my diet, and will add in more physical activity soon. Doing nothing is getting me nowhere------but at least I don't feel pain in my sleep, which is a pretty big payout, right?

 

[fuzzypenguin]

Thanks guys for the feedback and comments. I'm glad to be back and checking this site more. Not as often as I once was, but it's a start. I've been going back and forth honestly about seeing a counselor. If I get this job I'm waiting to hear back from, I probably will since I'll need somebody who is confidential. Mt anxiety is still bad and I still don't want to leave my bed, but I think it's partly due to thr fact that I found out I have bronchitis so cheers to that. I'm gojng to try to rest as much as I can this weekend, but my anxiety will keep me from doing that. I need to find a hobby...