Theverytiredgirl
New Here
I literally can’t stop, it’s horrible to really feel things for me, even if I’m alone when I cry, which I am, I’m crying alone about a movie, although it must be more than that, but boy did it hit me in the gut. It was called; “ Call me by your name” if anyone has seen it you’ll understand. I’m actually very embarrassed to be balling my eyes out over a fictional romance but here I am. I’m terrified that I’ll not ever really be in love, and I’m terrified that I will be, cause that can be awful, it can go wrong in thousands of ways, and I’ve lost so much already. The thing is I don’t even admit to myself that I’m this hopeless romantic on the inside, and that it’s something I do in fact want. I just assumed I would be alone, and it didn’t scare me, but now it does! My life is going to be just an utter waste if I can’t even try. Oh my that is some cinematic magic to make me feel like this, triggered for sure, but honest with myself, and so horrible sad, I’m literally inconsolable! Thanks for tearing up my chest cavity, and trampling on my heart. ? (for real though). I guess I’ll live through it.