Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

When I move my thumb, the spot hurts and feels exactly like I sat on it and the blood flow is gone. I’m not sure what would cause that. It looks ugly.

 

[littleoc]

actually... it looks exactly like a chemical burn...

 

[littleoc]

f*cking shit. Am I allowed to “arbitrator” my mom to pay a medical expense?

 

[littleoc]

This is ridiculous.

 

[littleoc]

I looked at my thumb in the light and washed it. Looks like it just needs some air and time.

I have a weird amount of experience with chemicals so I know who to call and when.

My mom got home and thanked me sincerely for taking an interest in her comfort. So that was sad.

Told her I uncovered the vents. Told her I reinstalled the fans. She did not seem to remember the fans.

I told her that it could take a day or more to get cool up there again. She said that’s okay, she’s just happy that the fans are on.

She does not seem to realize that the windows exist.

So. Yeah. The therapist will be hearing this story.

 

[somerandomguy]

!!! That house is crazy !!!

I'm sorry you have to live in that hazard.

 

[LuckiLee]

It sounds like you're finally getting angry. It's not something we want to be but sometimes we have to get angry to make changes. A few more days until the therapist / organizer appointment. If your mom doesn't take this seriously? You have to move out of there! I know you don't want to give her an ultimatum but I think you're going to have to. Mom, if you don't accept this opportunity, I have to move out.... It's no wonder you and birdy keep getting sick. I hope she accepts the help you've found and takes full advantage of it. If she doesn't you have to. Maybe they can help YOU to make some changes and educate you about hoarding. This is her life and her mess. Can't keep blaming dad. He's been out if the house for years. Good luck with everything!!! Fingers crossed. XO

 

[littleoc]

!!! That house is crazy !!!

I. Cannot. Believe. That my side of the house is BETTER than this! I can’t even live on my side! I have like one room total when I have access to two rooms! There is no kitchen, no dining room, no living room, and only a bathroom because I built a cabinet and uncovered everything! Wtf?? How is her side even worse? How do you not end up extra careful when you realize you barely have a room to yourself?

My room was fairy bad and still is after more than FIFTY GARBAGE BAGS and I STILL wouldn’t bring new things in!

She agreed to donate a useless fan but other than that, why is there trash everywhere? Why not get a can for upstairs if you have all that garbage?

She nearly fell right in front of me on A PAPER BOWL. Just... what???

 

[littleoc]

It's not something we want to be but sometimes we have to get angry to make changes.

I suppose I agree

Seeing this definitely solidified that it’s not my fault —and you’re right, it’s not my dad’s either. I think he’d be just as shocked if he saw this.

I’m angry that my mom ever acted like it was anyone’s fault but hers. I left it nice up there, my little brother left it nice up here.

Y’all should have seen how my little brother could stage an intervention. Little genius. Still didn’t work. Apparently. Because what the actual f

A few more days until the therapist / organizer appointment. If your mom doesn't take this seriously? You have to move out of there!

A few more days. Very comforting. This will change.

In fact, I’m willing to be more forceful about this. MY side is dangerous! I was scared of that, but after seeing her space? I don’t get how she has feet, to be honest. I was falling all over the place — and I am not physically disabled .

Just... whoa

You’re right, because if mom doesn’t get better, the rest of the house will be like that. My sister was excited that the house still had paths because she’s seen hoarder shows where there are no longer paths.

There are not paths between my mom’s office and bed. You can’t see the floor. I REFUSE to live a place where you can’t see the floor. That WAY beyond my boundaries. I’m very done with this place.

I may just take charge of the help and not give her a choice. She’s clearly ill and needs to see that.

If I showed her the pictures I took, that might be separated for her to see how f*cked up it is. It’s way, way worse up there than when I called the Hoarders USA.

They’d be thrilled with all my anger, too. Lots-o-drama. Still can’t contact them, though.

Sort of wondering if my mom just gave up and thought no more help would happen? Because damn is it bad up there

It's no wonder you and birdy keep getting sick.

great point

Yeah, I have my bird in another room right now because the mildew smell in my room is still bothering me. Seems to be UNDER the carpet in one place that I keep spraying. I’ve been waking up choking. That’s stupid.

That, and I put a cloth bag near a vent in my room, and now the carpet is kind of blackish and the bag smells like mildew, and my mom doesn’t have another intake filter so I’m just like “what the actual f*ck” because that is going to require professional cleaning, and that’s going to be expensive as shit and my mom’s 50,000$ paycheck keeps disappearing before she can make it in the middle class. I have no idea it’s being spent on. Maybe this iPhone she gifted me? Maybe the mysterious “Christmas debt”?

Like, how come I get paid less than 5000$ a year, and still manage a savings account, and she’s insanely in debt? What kind of illness is this?

Good luck with everything!!! Fingers crossed. XO

Thank you... I hope everything goes great. I hope she’s just as sick of it as I am

 

[littleoc]

I just found a bag of bacon

Yum?

 

[LuckiLee]

What the actual f*ck!!?? Tell me it wasn't in her room. ?

 

[littleoc]

Lol, thank god, no... it was in a tub of food. In a bedroom but not hers or mine. It says it expired on June 2018 so I’m just gonna toss it (because the date totally matters in this context :I )