Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

My mom is not handling this well

Makes sense though.

 

[littleoc]

Yeah, I’m probably going to use my excess student loans for basic bills.

My mom was born in 1960, is she too young for Medicaid? She claims she is but I thought that was a hardship insurance?

I’m still on board for getting my lisence, just now there’s extra pressure because I need a job.

 

[littleoc]

I guess I’ll quit looking at that house 1500 Winding Way drive. Totally can’t afford it now.

This is not fair. My mom got sold and then let go with a “Merry Christmas.” And is being asked to work for free now. She’s a good person, who would do this?

 

[littleoc]

It’s a cheap house, too. I actually had enough in savings for the down payment! But probably not much else, lol.

Plus I don’t have enough saved for if I suddenly get terminated by a shitty employer. So.

 

[littleoc]

My mom refused to take my money. She claims I’m not allowed to be responsible for her bills.

I guess we’ll see how long that goes?

 

[LuckiLee]

My guy was born in 66 & they gave it to him without any problems. I am so so sorry this happened. Alot of companies let people go right before the new year. Many moons ago I worked at a retail store's headquarters. The biggest of it's time and they let people go every Friday through the month of December. It was so sick and wrong. So many people were devastated. I knew married couples raising families who both lost their income. I was young at the time so it didn't effect me like it did others. Capitalism at its finest. Grrr!! ?

 

[littleoc]

Okay, perfect. I’ll tell my mom that.

That is cruel. There should be a law.

 

[LuckiLee]

@littleoc, You need to apply for assistance too. At least medical and food. Please. At least try. K? You're deserving! The website tells you all kinds of stuff. Sending support from Michigan. The mittin state. ?

 

[littleoc]

Hey, Michigan!!!! That’s where my brother-in-law is from, from the Reservation there!!! Neat stuff! Small world!!

And okay, that’s not a bad idea. It doesn’t hurt to try.

On the bright side, though. All this current-only stress was the cure I needed for those flashbacks?? If I can mansge the stress and keep making plans. I should be good to go for a bit. Woooooot.

 

[littleoc]

I’m in like the worst state for that stuff honestly. Anyone here from Tennessee? They allow employers to get away with so much! Can be traced back to AT&T’s huge monopoly that the federal government got involved in. Then my state was like “Um excuse me we are an independent STATE so eff off” and the federal government was like “um you’re not even Texas though” lol good times

 

[littleoc]

On the bright side, though. All this current-only stress was the cure I needed for those flashbacks??

Not to imply I’m enjoying stress, though. Or that the house isn’t annoying me. ?‍

 

[littleoc]

I should at least find a way to be able to pay for my medications. I’m already aware I need those.

I might be able to forgo the birth control for max 3-6 months, but as it would be a huge unnecessary cancer risk, not much more than that.

Too bad my body doesn’t get hormones. Lol. It was like “we can’t be female nor male so we’ll grow a beard and breasts that are both annoyingly too big” by annoying too big I mean my beard was like a centimeter and super patch, it didn’t look particularly manly unfortunately

Maybe this is G-d’s answer to how to celebrate holiday seasons without spending any extra time or money. I guess a mound of dirt will do.

Not that I’m the most religious person ever anyway. I don’t even have contact with the community these days. I got pretty violently severed from it before I even know what life was. Aka before I was born. Because my dad and his dad and his dad had a violent history with it. Tough times.

At least I don’t get much hate mail.

Ugh maybe I should try to locate a community though. It might really help while I’m so stressed. I don’t have to tell everyone that I was technically raised by an agnostic and a born-again atheist. And my brother’s Christian now. Or my mom is not Jewish so the rules get even sketchier. Hm.