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Thanks @Freida :hug:

I’m 100% sure it was just an accident/time management issue, though. It just felt really bad. And I hadn’t eaten or drank yet because I was waiting. My brain tends to go stupid when that happens.

Also sorry, @Chris-duck, I wasn’t thinking straight — I’ll try to remember to have sugar before driving next time. I was too worried about being late.
 
I was trying to pay a special reduced fee for a Passover dinner.

So, funny thing: a group visited from one of the mentally disabled adult homes (no idea what you’re supposed to call them? I called them visitors, lol. I don’t know what the disabilities are besides “intellectual”) so I went over to say hello because they were all my age which I thought was exciting. They were really excited to say hello and see a dog, but one dude in particular cracked me up.

He came up, introduced himself very gentlemanly, and then started asking me if I have a boyfriend, but his legal guardian made an “uh uh” noise, so he quickly changed it to, “Do you have a sister? What’s her name? Do you have a brother? What’s his name and his name?” And after I asked him if he had siblings, he scrunched his face and asked really quietly, “Do you have a boyfriend?” ? I just told him I don’t and I’m probably not going to get one. He seemed satisfied with that. It was hilarious how his guardian gave him a look and gave me a look like “he always does this” :laugh:
 
Unrelated note, but I wish I understood which wines I can drink and which I can’t. Some cause an allergic reaction in me, some make my head feel more painful, and some burn the entire time their in my system. While others (especially cheap champagne for some reason?) cause NO responses or intolerances.

Probably for the best though, I really shouldn’t be drinking at all. It messes with me. In fact, I bet that overwhelm from earlier was somewhat tied to the wine I had on Monday. It affects me for days. Which is stupid and I totally won’t be just telling people this, lol. I’ll just keep experimenting with which wines actually help (in moderation) and which ones cause the reactions (also in moderation)

@Freida Thanks!!! They did seem to like “visitors” — and it’s what they were today so hey! Probably an educational experience if I had to guess. I hope they liked the music!
 
Sorry for overreacting though. Everything is good.

Not totally sure how to address the fact that my dad is sending me cards from secret addresses but whatever. The fact that he bought me a card is nice. He thought of me.

I’m going to ask my siblings if they got cards. My little bro is the one I’m worried about. My dad hates him, but if he didn’t send him a card, then I’ll know he’s still not sorry and is just trying to get us confused again.

One year my little bro got a card that litterally said “I forgive you for lying about me, because we both know I didn’t abuse you,” playing on the fact that my lil bro wants to be loved and would have to choose either love or hatred. I’m still very, very angry about that. Totally NOT how parents are supposed to act.

My bro luckily is a big “mama’s boy” (because boys can’t love their moms a lot without it having to be named) so my mom telling him those exact words (“that’s not parent behavior”) was meaningful to him.
 
Anyway, happy topics now!!! I’ll just figure out how to address all that on Monday. My twin bro is having his Shabbat on Sunday still so now there are two days of chill because I feel like it, lmao

My twin bro and I ARE going to have birthday celebrations on the same day under the same roof!! :D :D ? I cant get him anything but my mom got him a movie and a chess set, so there’s that :D
 
My dad texted me asking how life is and when I answered he replied with respect o.O Didn’t let the conversation trail on too long, though. He’ll be fine lol
 

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