Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

I own my car completely but may have to give it up if I chose to live. Group home too expensive for someone making 500/mo on SSDI

 

[littleoc]

If you are near Tennessee and want a cat please text me at 615.559.8806

 

[littleoc]

I do not want to live

 

[littleoc]

Am I being a baby? Am I hurting people? Do I owe a good ending to anyone when I can't achieve anything anymore?

 

[littleoc]

As in, I feel guilty. I wanted to be a success story but am less than nothing now, and people act upset when I post on Facebook that I want to die. I want a referral for euthanasia. I want to stop existing like this

 

[littleoc]

I feel like I owe everyone something positive. I feel like my ex is happy I'm losing everything.

 

[littleoc]

I just wanted somewhere to live that was nice. I wanted to have a family, some cats, my bird. I have nothing and I am nothing

 

[littleoc]

Sorry for posting. I don't even know why I'm doing it. have to live at least long enough to rehome my animals. Have to cope for at least one more month.

Then will be homeless and plan to end it from there. Friend wants me to try mental hospital first. Best bet is being put away forever, group home, no future.

Just let me have this, I am allowed to be upset. I can't do this anymore