Contradictions!

[Deleted member 36516]

Hello guys!

I still have simple blurred vision with identification and detection of objects as an unreal.
I still have problem with brain’s ability to take in and understand olfactory information and visual information, In other words, it understands those information That it's Syria , not Norway!
It's more like living in two places at the same time, which causes contradictions in my thoughts and my behavior, and simple losing in the touch With reality!
Is that normal? Anyone else feel like this? does anyone have information about that?

Thanks

 

[Crow]

For years I saw an overlay to what was actually there but I would see a world on top of the world...if that makes sense. A plane would make me want to duck for cover. I would continuously be thinking of exits out of where ever I was. It is not unusual at all. It's the nervous system trying to resolve what happened in the past .... the body not quite understanding I was in a different place/time. Hope that makes sense too. Are you in therapy? That's the only thing that really helped resolve the hallucinations. Still have them every now and then when I'm really triggered.

 

[Deleted member 36516]

@CrowFeather , Hello!
Thanks for sharing your experience!
My therapist told me that therapy sessions are no longer useful for you! Maybe I will try another therapy! But actually I am suffering from hallucinations! I see objects as a real! All of real-life now makes me a triggered, my reality now as if it was a deja vu of my past.

 

[Ronin]

Is that normal? Anyone else feel like this? does anyone have information about that?

Yes and yes.

Is there anything that's enough Syria, present time, in Norway, but safe, that you could recompose with? Restaurants, entertainment places, communities of people, places of fellow ex-pats? Or even other middle Eastern places that'd have enough interesting & safe & helpful in the same time content?

Figures changing cultural background so out of the sudden is bit like being a fish too darned fast tossed out of the sea, and it's helpful to have the welcome reminders around, tossing out the rest. Something that registers as familiar, but without being the danger familiar, if there's anything like that.

 

[Ronin]

But actually I am suffering from hallucinations! I see objects as a real!

If you're seeing your past, it's flashbacks, not hallucinations, and definitely seek a more understanding therapist please :) You're not loosing your mind, it's common. :)

 

[Deleted member 36516]

@Ronin ! Thanks for your positive posts, and I am so glad to post to you! ;)
I am suffering from completed social rejection with peer pressure and bullying this period, so my reality also is so bad.
I have a flashback, but also I see objects (tanks,fighters,....etc) in the streets and in my room as a real !
I don't know, tried and confused completely :(

 

[Ronin]

Ahh, sorry to hear you're still dealing with the social crapload :(:shifty: Hopefully they all leave you alone soon.

Ok, with the all too real, and not quite there, dangers, have you tried smoothening it out? I usually play a 'Ok, it's an enemy that's darned close, but maybe I wasn't spotted yet, so where do I hide from that, and how do I get to somewhere to hide to begin with' game with myself when that happens, and focus on the retreat to safety.

Which also means I have to watch just how fast I can go, and where, and who watches too, and that usually clues me in when I notice the surroundings are different & the only thing upsetting the watchers is me by being over the top sneaky.

So yeah: look for the little changes, when the big ones are too hard; something small that is safety, even in a too different a lair? And bring that something safe to all of your days, if you can. One routine down is a good base.

 

[Deleted member 36516]

@Ronin! I read your beautiful words over and over again !Sorry my response took so long.
yeah! I have tried a lot of ways of self-care :( !
Maybe I need to think more about next small change in my life

 

[Ronin]

You're welcome @Ghaith wardeh, and not taking long at all, please take your time. :):hug:

Did anything of things you tried for self care feel like something that helps fast, or something you could be doing for a longer time, do you think? :)

 

[Deleted member 36516]

I've tried a lot, like : yoga, health diet, sports, photography' courses, reading books, ....etc, but the problem is that I am socially unacceptable! I'm completely alone ( just bullying) , i don't talk to anyone in my real-life, just my therapist! This life is so nasty !!!!

 

[Ronin]

i don't talk to anyone in my real-life, just my therapist!

You are very acceptable, sorry that
not accepted yet, but that'll change. :)

You mentioned you talk to your therapist, do they know of the bullying? Maybe you could work on a plan to stop that, and help you find people that'd talk to you just fine with whom you'd feel well.

Have you tried places where one can meet people but doesn't have to do a lot of talking, certainly not about themselves? That would be calm. Coffee shops / tea rooms / other places to sit like that, libraries, jazz / blues clubs?

Or are there any science interest clubs near you? They're other good place to talk the topic at hand and related interests with people easily sharing about it, without people caring if one's a new comer and just stopping by or not, depending on the culture.

 

[Gs172003]

I've tried a lot, like : yoga, health diet, sports, photography' courses, reading books, ....etc,...

There's nothing wrong with you, there's just too many jerks in the world. I'm sorry honey.