Rowen13
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I have extreme CPTSD, going through menopause, depressed and anxious. I thought I had anxious/avoidance style attachment issues but because of the intensity to rejection and connection, I feel I am suffering from a traumatic response when triggered.
Fear of abandonment, closeness makes me mentally spiral and is so extreme it manifests itself physically, showing up with heart palpitations, weakness, dizziness and feeling the need to pass out in blind terror.
My mum physically abused me as a child and we were often starved both of actual nutrition and emotional connection. She is a classic narcissist and I still have high levels of toxic shame from being her carer. She's totally isolated me and enmeshed herself so much I don't have a separate identity at 50 years of age.
Fear of abandonment, closeness makes me mentally spiral and is so extreme it manifests itself physically, showing up with heart palpitations, weakness, dizziness and feeling the need to pass out in blind terror.
My mum physically abused me as a child and we were often starved both of actual nutrition and emotional connection. She is a classic narcissist and I still have high levels of toxic shame from being her carer. She's totally isolated me and enmeshed herself so much I don't have a separate identity at 50 years of age.