Deep Breathing And Meditation Not Helping Anymore

[BoogieOnGal]

The last two weeks I have had to deal with my abusive exhusband via the courts. My panic attacks feel like one constant wave the last few days and I finally went to a doctor yesterday. The social worker did a screening and I scored of the charts for PTSD....but my doctor refused to offer any kind of treatment at least to get the panic attacks manageble until I can get into some kind of treatment. I have called everyone on the list I was provided with and no one can see me for months. I can't eat, I can barely sleep, I feel like scratching my skin off I itch so bad and I feel like pulling my hair out...I feel as though I am being smothered. How do I get help when there is none? I have another hearing today via phone with the magistrate and him..his voice scares me like a barking rabid dog. The court where he is could care less that he abused me and that I am terrified of him. Every request I file to have legal counsel and to change the venue gets denied. The judge told me the other day that he did not care if I wanted a laywer and proceeded with the hearing.

 

[The Albatross]

At times, all you can do is pull yourself together as best as you can muster and walk through it as tactfully as you can. If you want a lawyer, keep asking for one. Keep calling and asking for the "cancelation list"... sometimes I get a break and get in early because I can be available for a canceled appointment. Very sorry Boogie On Gal that this is a difficult and stressful time for you. Keep trying, keep swinging and keep posting. I hope something breaks and goes well with you gal.

 

[PerfectlyFlawed]

Abusives use the courts as another way to punish, intimidate, and emotionally bitch slap you for one final hurt.

Been there done that.

Not knowing your details of your case, I am assuming this is a Divorce/or Order of Protection?

I am sorry you are going through this. With the courts, when life is out of control, it is difficult to allow the courts to control.

 

[PerfectlyFlawed]

Have you tried Googling legal aid and your town for local attorneys that can do it pro bono?

 

[BoogieOnGal]

I have tried legal aid and they cannot help me We are not divorced yet another way for him to control me I will be filing for divorce from the court in my county. He has alienated my children from me for four years and now we are dealing with child support and parent/child contact. I lost my job in December due to the trauma resurfacing have not been able to find full time employment that I can handle. On the phone now for the child support hearing this is not going well and I can barely breathe. He brought someone with him who has a record of every job I have ever had.They are also allowing him to question me and refused my request to have an attorney present.

 

[The Albatross]

Oh gal, I wish they would have given you legal counsel for this. No recourse?

 

[BoogieOnGal]

I have to pay 75 a week and have no job ..awesome! My parent child contact hearing is not set until June

 

[BoogieOnGal]

and sorry for ranting I feel like I am going insane

 

[The Albatross]

No girlfriend, you're stressed. All in bounds considering. You're in a very stressful and serious time. Vent away as you need to. Hope you get a favorable outcome in spite of the doings this week.

 

[BoogieOnGal]

Thanks bunches!!! Hoping my SO gets home early tonight from work I need cuddles :) he has been a peach through all of this.

 

[boshemia]

I never would have made out without my advocate. When you are dealing with an abuser you need someone who understand and can help you find the resources you need. Call your local domestic violence advocacy center, it should be in the phone book. They can help you find doctors, attorneys and even meds in emergencies.

Bless you.

 

[healthbuilder]

Oh shut!! I can't digest this news. Recently I had faced many changes due to anxiety. I started doing yoga regularly. It works well for me. Now I'm free from the changes.