trying2movefwd
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A family member made a comment to me about multiple personality disorder...when I asked her if she thought I had it or something..she just looked at me funny....so I told my Therapist about it...and she said, " Sometimes you do present differently in therapy sessions." I was like what?!?!? Because she mentioned a few months back that it was possible a part of myself had integrated. But it all went back to a trauma as the reason for the comment from the family anyway...I was just explaining that it was so strange as a teen. I'd be up at 2 a.m. which I am now and can't sleep!!!! Usually i am asleep right now!!! Anyway I'd finally get to bed and wake up at 6 for school as though...I had slept all night and nothing had happened. I fully connect this now...so maybe parts have "integrated". This is all so confusing. Moreso I feel like I still have that teen part though. My therapist and I discussed this and broke some ground as more abuse was uncovered. Abuse memories that surfaced years ago had me feeling very broken, hurt, sad, and disgusted....but this particular thing surfaced just 2 days ago...has me very angry but also kind of empowered because I understand something about myself better now that I never saw before. Sorry..i am babbling. Anyone with DID or something like this please feel free to comment. Thanks. P.s. looking back I can totally tell parts of me where not "all there" in that appointment. Seems kind of foggy now. I wrote the majority of this post other day. Thought i posted it. Came back to find out it was just saved.