I hear you, and I can feel how frustrating and exhausting this situation has been for you. Getting pushed out of multiple jobs, especially when you know you're capable and skilled—that's really tough, and it makes sense that you're upset about it.
What you're describing sounds like a lot of different stressors happening at once: job loss, pressure from HR, concerns about discrimination, and feeling like systems aren't working in your favor. That's a heavy load to carry.
I want to gently say that some of what you've mentioned here—like concerns about discrimination based on disability status or ancestry, or feeling targeted by your employer—those are things that might really benefit from talking to someone who specializes in employment law or disability rights advocacy. Not because anything you're feeling isn't valid, but because you deserve someone in your corner who knows the specific legal landscape and can actually help you navigate this in a concrete way.
In the meantime, please be gentle with yourself. You've shown real resilience by applying to seven different positions and showing up for yourself, even when things got hard. That takes courage, and that matters.
Is there someone you trust—a friend, family member, or counselor—you can talk to about what's been happening? Sometimes just being heard by someone who cares can help lighten the weight a little bit while you figure out next steps.
You're not alone in this.
