Poll Do You Collapse Under Stress?

[Porphyry]

I can endure strain for some while, but I feel it and I get really grumpy really fast. If the situation doesn't improve, I'll eventually collapse into depression. Sometimes just a day or two, but lately it's been longer. I'm currently in a big-ass collapse that's lasted, oh gosh. What month is this? June? So two and a half months-ish. It's mostly depression, but I've been sick three times in that period--two evil head colds and currently fighting strep. The stress wears on my immune system and I get all germified and gross. Which doesn't help anything except the upcoming takeover of the world by germ kind. (My "Over My Dead Body" rallying cry has not inspired much fear amongst the enemy)

I'm at a complete loss. I got literally nothing. I'm not doing my job (an online thing, super easy), and I have no interest in doing it. I'm not even sure I'm mentally capable right now. But I can form sentences, so how do I explain to my employer that I don't have it in me when I sound perfectly fine? Argh and f*cktastic. I've been watching way too much crap TV, as if that'll cure me. What. I don't know how to make this phase pass more quickly. I feel sudden urges to do chores, which is good for the house, but it's not what I'm "supposed" to be working on. I guess I'm all out of f*cks to give, and I don't know when the next drop shipment is due.

 

[-lemurlibs91-]

@Porphyry - does your employer know about your depression??? If not, maybe it's the time to let them know? Try not to beat yourself up about the phase you're in, I know it's frustrating but it makes it more likely to last..... I know I feel like I'm going insane when depression hits and I'm suddenly not showering, not doing ANYTHING, with no interest in doing the tiniest things, it's like I've slowed down. But try to be kinder to yourself, you're going through a hard time and it's not something you've chosen to feel.
By the way I like your sense of humour: "I guess I'm all out of f*cks to give, and I don't know when the next drop shipment is due." :giggle:

 

[holdenmonty]

When I am overly stressed out then I tend to mentally shut down. And I can physically feel it when I mentally shut down because it feels like my brain has turned to mush.

 

[Friday]

Yep.

I've always said I have a finite capacity for stress, after that? I just shut down. Reading about the StressCup was a ZMFG kind of thing. It's not just me??? This is a thing? Well, holy effing...

One of the things that made no one who knows me ever believe me when I say this is that certain things I simply find relaxing & ennervating, that other people find stressful as all get out. Meanwhile a whole nother class is stressful as all get out after, but I'm fine in the moment. Thirdly, there's a whole lot of stuff no one else on the planet seems to find difficult that stress me like crazy. Lastly there's good/bad stress that everyone -including me- finds stressful.

They didn't believe me, but I still knew. And I could always feel things starting to hit capacity. LOL @holdenmonty . I've sometimes called it "My brain has turned to oatmeal." Cha. Serious blank minded, sorry, absolutely no thinking allowed, stop the world now, please. I can, & have, pushed past that. Very. Very. Very bad idea. Explosive temper is just the tip of the iceberg in that particular cluster. Bad things. Very bad things. Thar be monsters off the edge of that particular map.

 

[Changing4Best]

I voted "not any more" because earlier on in therapy, when I was going through a lot, or during times I could not get therapy for whatever reasons. I do recall being in bed for about 2 wks one time, just facing the wall, too freaked out and unwell to get up or go out. I sure am glad that phase is over now though!