Does Anyone Fear They Are Burdensome?

[shadowchaser]

I'm just tiered of people who don't know me trying to gain my trust in such short amounts of time.

 

[Tinyflame]

Then I wouldn't suspect they're likely trustworthy, because trustworthy people know there is lots of time to see for yourself- because they are trustworthy.

 

[Grace11]

Does anyone feel ashamed of their symptoms? I feel ashamed when I am sick, ashamed when I am triggered, ashamed to not be 'able' to 'handle' things the way I used to. I feel ashamed to ask for help, and when I do ask for help, ashamed of that too and certain it's (the shame) is not only 'deserved' but shared by anyone I've told, and even if they say otherwise it's just to be polite. Like I'm toxic to others. Even going to the Dr is almost impossible.

I'm not sure what I'm hoping to accomplish writing this, but thanks for reading.

I feel all of the above on a daily basis. ((((hugs)))))

 

[BrazenBull]

Just Today my friend helped me by walking to the clinic because I diddnt eat or drink any water the full day and i wasnt feeling well.
and I just walked behind her and thought "Why does a girl this nice have to hang out with a total loser like me."

 

[Tinyflame]

It occurred to me with trust, that if one is trustworthy it's ok to be trusted from the start,but there is endless- time to see for yourself, too - no pressure. But if not there might be a 'hurry up and trust me' response (before the real and opposite truth comes out). I find it a bad sign (the worst) when people 'say it', especially from the start.

 

[Reclusive]

I was totally overwhelmed by the burden thing this weekend. I had to go to the grocery, which I can normally do just fine on my own, but it was raining and my car has been having trouble so I needed my fiance to go with me. He has PTSD too and was having a day and I felt horrible he had to go with me. And then to top it all off I had a panic attack when I got home so he had to deal with that too!!! :(

 

[Tinyflame]

It occurs to me that my connotation to being a burden isn't transitory- it's pretty deep-seated and all-inclusive. So I think I'm going to try to listen to the kindnesses of others here or think of those in my life, (vs thinking of my own doubts/ fears etc, or negative things). I'm trying

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