Don't Want To Be In This Skin Any Longer!!

[Tiger]

I can't stand it!!! I can't cope with seeing a reflection of it!! I am totally disgusted with it when I have a bath!! I don't want it!! I don't need it! I have wanted to be a pair of eyes just floating around for absolute ages and now I wish that was all I was!! Doesn't matter how much I scrub, it just won't get clean!!! I hate being me!! I hate being female! I hate being trapped!! I am so angry and upset, I just don't know what to do? I'm sorry!!

 

[NovaTex]

Take a deep breath. Remember where you are now is not where you were. Remind yourself you're ok over and over even if you don't believe it . . . I hope you feel better soon!'

 

[Friday]

Everything is temporary.

You won't feel like this forever.

Things will change.

 

[SeanCharles]

Hi Tiger. Things sound bad right now. When the going gets tough, the tough take a rest. Sounds like you need to focus on breathing. Take some time to focus on the present situation. The past is not The now, the past was. Hang on and take baby steps. Seconds if necessary. Taking you life would matter to people who are here for you! If need be go to the hospital or call a crisis line. Solving a temporary problem with a permanent solution is not the answer! Friendly :hug: is offered.

Sean/Geordie

 

[WillyKat]

Tiger, you are clean, there's nothing that needs scrubbing away, and there's nothing disgusting about you.

I apologize if I don't know your story, but for a lot of us, something disgusting and unclean was done to us, but it didn't make us unclean. That's what the evil ones want us to think, that somehow *we're* not clean. We're fine; it is they.

We've all been at that stage, but it is just a stage. Read what the other posters said and follow their advice to breathe and get into the present moment.

 

[Dana1010]

Don't be sorry Tiger. You sound like you might want to try meditation. Try to just watch your own mind when you get like this. Realize that you are not your body. You are not your thoughts either, they are just passing through your mind like clouds passing over the sky. I'm not trying to force religion on you but Buddhism and Vedanta writings can help you see yourself as separate from experience if that sounds interesting to you.

Peace, love and harmony,

Dana1010