Things that before EMDR therapy I would have coped with I can't seem to now. Yesterday my teen rushed ahead and had a shower despite me saying 'I'm going for one right now, knowing full well. I lost the plot, I was shaking crying and hyperventilating. WTH is wrong with me?. I wake up in the night my mind thinks of worst case senarios to my current relationship and I start crying and I'm consumed by grief thinking he'll leave me eventually .True he's not treating me well but I cant find any anger anymore for anything. No rage when I should feel it. Just tears and ' punched in the gut feeling' . Its like my flame got snuffed out. I used to be able to handle situations well and stand up and not take people s*** but now I feel I lost ' myself'. I started EMDR for flashbacks during Covid lockdown. I thought I was doing the right thing getting help.Anuone else feel like this?.