I'll try hard to stick to the point. I am a fraternal twin. I am the "lucky" one though. I say that sarcastically. My sister has been able to go through life with managing any mental health symptoms like average people do. I on the other hand, have major depressive d/o severe minus psychotic stuff, borderline personality d/o, GAD, PTSD, dissociative identity d/o that leads to amnesia, loss of time, confusion and isolation. Of the two, I have always been the more sensitive and longer to learn things. I was the tiny one too, sadly always compared to her leaving me feeling horrible for her. I always considered myself fat never going over 110 lbs till I left for college. See, I could never say I hope she get some of the pie because it's a lonely, mostly sad life. Sure, she may have issues that come up elsewhere not dx by a Dr, I get it. It just intregues us.
Right now, "we" as in all my parts feels so deeply lonely. Because we don't know what to say to people anymore. We're in our own world just trying to make sense of the known and unknown madness. Plus, we met with our T just hours ago and it can take a long time to come around. In addition, a trial is taking place on a pathetic waste of a human who sexually assaulted children at the community center. Yes, my child is involved. It has been devastating to me and triggered my parts to become known to my T. We are very slowly working on the idea of having her meet each individually and it's terrifying for each part. And tomorrow, back to work at a place that I'm nothing but a physical body who spends 8 hours silent to the outside world. We're very sad and very alone
Right now, "we" as in all my parts feels so deeply lonely. Because we don't know what to say to people anymore. We're in our own world just trying to make sense of the known and unknown madness. Plus, we met with our T just hours ago and it can take a long time to come around. In addition, a trial is taking place on a pathetic waste of a human who sexually assaulted children at the community center. Yes, my child is involved. It has been devastating to me and triggered my parts to become known to my T. We are very slowly working on the idea of having her meet each individually and it's terrifying for each part. And tomorrow, back to work at a place that I'm nothing but a physical body who spends 8 hours silent to the outside world. We're very sad and very alone
