mumstheword
MyPTSD Pro
I'm wondering how to "fix" this. Is it possible?
Trauma and disability seems to define my entire existance and all my perspectives, my likes, dislikes, preferences, opinions, etc, and I'm wondering if anyone here has found a way to transcend this, or just doesn't experience this and am I missing some profound (to me) wisdom that can help me, either come to terms with this, or move past it?
I, maybe, should add, that I don't really have a "before trauma" just a "more trauma" and only very recently, a very brief respite from added vicarious trauma (it's now a thing I deal with via my chidren's trauma that I've been learning about recently).
I realise this is a "sense of self" thing, but, due to my Aspergers/Autism on top of c-PTSD, which adds a layer of neural/nervous system intensity, I feel really stuck and maybe should just surrender to either an insular life or trying to forge some kind of vocation that embraces a life forged through traumatic stress and nervous system oversensitivities.
Any thoughts? I'm really scared, putting myself out here, "kicked dog syndrome" type scenario, so any kindness, understanding or acceptance would really help right now.
Thanks in advance for reading and/responding.
Trauma and disability seems to define my entire existance and all my perspectives, my likes, dislikes, preferences, opinions, etc, and I'm wondering if anyone here has found a way to transcend this, or just doesn't experience this and am I missing some profound (to me) wisdom that can help me, either come to terms with this, or move past it?
I, maybe, should add, that I don't really have a "before trauma" just a "more trauma" and only very recently, a very brief respite from added vicarious trauma (it's now a thing I deal with via my chidren's trauma that I've been learning about recently).
I realise this is a "sense of self" thing, but, due to my Aspergers/Autism on top of c-PTSD, which adds a layer of neural/nervous system intensity, I feel really stuck and maybe should just surrender to either an insular life or trying to forge some kind of vocation that embraces a life forged through traumatic stress and nervous system oversensitivities.
Any thoughts? I'm really scared, putting myself out here, "kicked dog syndrome" type scenario, so any kindness, understanding or acceptance would really help right now.
Thanks in advance for reading and/responding.