Ex od’d on purpose....

[Flip flop]

Found out about his suicide via internet.
When we were together, one time he mentioned that if he were to kill himself he would do it with a heroin overdose. I honestly thought he was joking at the time.

He was doing good work that was getting him some positive notoriety. But at some point he started drinking too much, people said he was running out of money and that a job opportunity had not panned out. Five years after he had mentioned overdosing on heroin as a suicide plan, he followed through and did it. Excuse the rant, but considering how much this world stinks, I really can’t say that I blame him. I have some idea of the reasons that may have contributed to his suicide. I struggle with some of those same things, as do mutual friends that we had. OK, I’m done with my rant. I appreciate you guys for listening.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Flip flop I’m sorry. He may have been an ex, but there was still a relationship and I’m sure it still caused you pain to hear this news.

My (ex) best friend and I used to discuss doing the same. She has undiagnosed PTSD and we would really talk about when we’ve had enough shit, to just go out with one big high. Sick, but efficient.

Yes, the world does stink at times.....

 

[littleoc]

Give yourself time to grieve and process. It may take a long time.

Sometimes another's suicide can re-awaken thoughts in yourself. One of my favorite things to keep in mind is that suicide doesn't solve the problem, but instead hands it over to loved ones, past and present. You are probably literally feeling his pain as a result. The way I think of it (which might be weird, but it's helped me a lot) is that I will try to help even now, and remember that he's at piece.

That kind of thinking can't be forced though. It will take time to make a conclusion about it. Be patient and gentle with yourself in the meantime.

Good luck <3