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Medical Medical trauma.. on purpose.

MPH

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I am sure my introduction will never be accepted. No one is suppose to go through what I have been through.

I have breathing tests done saying I am a female (I am male) with COPD and allergies. Given drugs that my pharmacist said are not approved for asthma. Also given epipen for asthma attacks Which the supplier says is not going to work.

Given a pacemaker. Pacemaker has been found to be giving me random high heart rates.

I don’t trigger for breathing tests. But I do strongly trigger for as told to me, “staged” asthma events.

My oxygen went to 70, much like all the times I am triggered. I triggered surgery Easter 2011, I was never told why. I keep asking why. Keep getting a huge runaround.

Where do you go when you have been abused by the people you are suppose to trust with your life?

They KNOW I have serious life threatening asthma. I received a ton of papers to that effect from my insurance company. They say it comes from automatically generated by Doctor‘s codes.

But no help. They take proper drugs away from me after I tell them, that works. Or given a nebulizer. Say works, they take it away for a rescue inhaler that is well known will not work. I can’t breathe in nor out on attacks. The rescue inhaler they gave me I have to inhale in the drug, I physically can’t. I said over 30 times I trigger driving. I can’t control the wheel of the car. I can’t breathe. I cough to the point of throwing up.

A recent asthma Doctor told me and I quote, “you deserved it”. No one deserves what I went through. I just want what was taken from me. Medical professionals that do there jobs ethically. Ethics was going to cite multiple providers for screwing with me. I told them, it is a waste Of time. They said Doctors have to. I was getting threats at the same time. It was not going to stop and it has not.

I would like to find help forward.
 
I'm sorry you are having such awful issues with the medical community. Seems to be something many people deal with, but don't talk about. I've been treated unethically many, many times. It's hard to trust after that and hard to reach out for help.

Given drugs that my pharmacist said are not approved for asthma. Also given epipen for asthma attacks Which the supplier says is not going to work.
It's not uncommon to be given meds that are off-label, that is, they are prescribed for one thing but given for something else. Typically, epipens are only used for severe attacks, and only if you can't get medical help.

Given a pacemaker. Pacemaker has been found to be giving me random high heart rates.
There is a condition that will cause this. I've read that they will usually reprogram the pacemaker. What does your doc say?

I triggered surgery Easter 2011, I was never told why.
Not sure what you mean by this. What kind of surgery?

Where do you go when you have been abused by the people you are suppose to trust with your life?
This is really hard. I move around to different doctors, different hospitals, local clinics. It's not ideal, but sometimes you just have to find that person who will listen and help.

But no help. They take proper drugs away from me after I tell them, that works. Or given a nebulizer. Say works, they take it away for a rescue inhaler that is well known will not work.
Ok, so what is the reason they take away the meds that seem to work? Is it an insurance thing? Or something else?

A recent asthma Doctor told me and I quote, “you deserved it”.
Deserved what? The asthma? Doesn't sound like a professional at all!

Do you have PTSD? Is it associated with your asthma?
 
I'm sorry you are having such awful issues with the medical community. Seems to be something many people deal with, but don't talk about. I've been treated unethically many, many times. It's hard to trust after that and hard to reach out for help.


It's not uncommon to be given meds that are off-label, that is, they are prescribed for one thing but given for something else. Typically, epipens are only used for severe attacks, and only if you can't get medical help.


There is a condition that will cause this. I've read that they will usually reprogram the pacemaker. What does your doc say?


Not sure what you mean by this. What kind of surgery?


This is really hard. I move around to different doctors, different hospitals, local clinics. It's not ideal, but sometimes you just have to find that person who will listen and help.


Ok, so what is the reason they take away the meds that seem to work? Is it an insurance thing? Or something else?


Deserved what? The asthma? Doesn't sound like a professional at all!

Do you have PTSD? Is it associated with your asthma?
Off label? No. I can should you my breathing test shows I am a female.

This pacemaker thing happened in the middle of an ethics investigation. It was SET, on purpose. Because I was given prednsione induced diabetes 9.4, heart failure, kidney failure on purpose for random high heart rates. Why on purpose? Heart Doctor told me. What did the lung Doctor say? No one cares about you. What about after this? I NEVER EVER got told one thing about the pacemaker. What did ethics say? I am being screwed with.

Gall bladder surgery. Before and after, I trigger oxygen quickly to 70. ASTHMA. I was told by a Doctor, I was lied to BEFORE I was disabled. That means at the time of this surgery, they knew I had asthma. They knew I trigger from cold weather. I entered the hospital triggered. My oxygen was in the low 90’s, high 80’s in prep. I was told to hyperventilate to get my oxygen to 95. Go google asthma, Bronchospasms and surgery. There is a whole long list of things that must be done for an asthmatic. My oxygen did not have to go to 70 in that surgery. I NEVER was told why. STILL. I keep asking 12 years later.

My family Doctor back in 2014. The mad one as stated by many other providers. Told me each and every time I was harmed, Doctors listen to other Doctors and don’t listen to their patients. I have been lied about. I keep hearing those lies. I have been told, I would be lied to in my state. Hipaa? My records of abuse go from Doctor to Doctor. My records arrive BEFORE I get to the appointments. I DON’T ask for them. In fact one Doctor’s place called me and told me someone is asking for records. Before I could answer them back, they told me the records request had already been signed. I could not sign the request. why you might ask? Because I was having a phone appointment. I never physically entered the building.

There will never be anyone. I have been lied about and lied to.

Why take away drugs that work? Because the drug has only one use: ASTHMA. The drugs they give me have many uses. That way many diseases. ALA I have COPD not asthma in breathing test where I am a female. I have already been told unless I lie about how this all happened I will never know what is wrong with me. I ALREADY was told by NY ethics EXACTLY what is wrong with me. Severe, high risk asthma. I have papers to that.

I deserved it is a comment I heard now for almost a decade. It is related to ANY medical issue I have. I deserved to not be helped for asthma. I deserved to not be helped for PTSD. I deserved it. On recordings.

PTSD is another medical issue diagnosed and not helped. I was diagnosed PTSD in 2018 In major hospital. I was told to leave and get care elsewhere with no diagnosis. I will tell you EXACTLY when PTSD started With proof as I recorded it. 2014 when my heart stopped twice I was told I was not helped on purpose. THAT IS TRAUMA, trust me.
I was diagnosed again in 2022 but told this time. I can’t get help. I tried. I get screwed with. Trauma specialist told me, the chances of ever getting help Because of how you got the trauma will be nil. I found the PTSD diagnosis from major hospital soon after. So no PTSD help or knowledge for YEARS.
I deserved it. I deserved to die. I deserved to not be helped on purpose. I deserved to be lied about. I deserved to be lied to. I deserved the many life threatening asthma attacks while they never make it to Doctors records. I recorded attacks, nothing in records they even happened.
Angry Doctor in 2014: Go kill yourself.
I deserved it.
When I try to explain what happened to me, I get ignored. Because NO ONE wants to get involved when your abuser is a Doctor.
 
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I am sure my introduction will never be accepted.
As WhiteRaven pointed out, many on this forum experienced medical malpractice of sorts. Unless you meant something else, I’m sure here the majority will understand what you’re going through. Unsure if you meant something else please feel free to clarify if you did.
I have breathing tests done saying I am a female (I am male) with COPD and allergies.
I’m unsure if the doctor who performed the test meant that your symptoms is commonly seen in females with COPD, i.e the severity or the lack of smoking. Or if they meant something entirely.
I don’t trigger for breathing tests. But I do strongly trigger for as told to me, “staged” asthma events.
I’m unsure if you have diagnosis due to one not being disclosed, and being a member doesn’t necessarily equate to that. Though one reason you might not trigger for breathing tests but instead trigger from others, might be due to your physiological symptoms being tied to your psychological symptoms. For instance, it can only show up when you’re put in a situation that your mind views as distressing and for some breathing tests doesn’t qualify as that.
My oxygen went to 70, much like all the times I am triggered.
Do you mean during the breathing test?
I triggered surgery Easter 2011, I was never told why. I keep asking why. Keep getting a huge runaround.
I’m unsure what this means either.
Where do you go when you have been abused by the people you are suppose to trust with your life?

They KNOW I have serious life threatening asthma. I received a ton of papers to that effect from my insurance company. They say it comes from automatically generated by Doctor‘s codes.
Yeah, COPD is definitely nothing you can fake. It’s diagnosed solely on a variety of tests like spirometry and and pulse oximetry. As for Asthma, though it can present as an extreme anxiety attack, it’s also something that shows physically due to it being an increase of mucus in the airway.

For them to dismiss that is frustrating in itself.
But no help. They take proper drugs away from me after I tell them, that works. Or given a nebulizer. Say works, they take it away for a rescue inhaler that is well known will not work. I can’t breathe in nor out on attacks. The rescue inhaler they gave me I have to inhale in the drug, I physically can’t.
All of this is aggregating to hear, not at you of course, but the medical community. Though as WhiteRaven pointed out I’m unsure if it’s due to it being an insurance thing or simple negligence.
I said over 30 times I trigger driving. I can’t control the wheel of the car. I can’t breathe. I cough to the point of throwing up.

A recent asthma Doctor told me and I quote, “you deserved it”. No one deserves what I went through. I just want what was taken from me. Medical professionals that do there jobs ethically. Ethics was going to cite multiple providers for screwing with me. I told them, it is a waste Of time. They said Doctors have to. I was getting threats at the same time. It was not going to stop and it has not.

I would like to find help forward.
With the any profession there’s people who genuinely do not should not have their jobs. But in the medical profession with an emphasis on patient care, their screw ups can lead to damages. I don’t know how far it’ll take you or even if it’s worth pursuing, but speaking with a patient advocate might help. Discussing your overall experience with the professionals in a certain practice can at the very least get a complaint filed.

As unfortunate as it is, as WhiteRaven mentioned, we have to shop around so to speak in order to find a professional that could fulfill our needs whether it be ethically or for other reasons. I just had to go to the emergency following a procedure going wrong. When I brought my symptoms to the doctor who did the procedure, I was told that it wasn’t due to complications but instead my generalized anxiety. It was a stupid brush off because if he had asked further questions he would’ve learned my anxiety is minimal and I’m more prone to depression symptoms. So for my symptoms to be anxiety wouldn’t make sense. When things go worse and I had to check myself into the ER I immediately contacted the supervisor of the department and informed them of the doctor who brushed off my symptoms. They said he’ll be under board review. Unsure where that will lead. But if anything it gives me peace of mind of reporting.

I genuinely believe there’s a professional will be able to help you. It’s just a matter of finding them that can be exhausting. In the meantime, reaching out to other medical professionals and representatives may help ease what’s going on.
 
As WhiteRaven pointed out, many on this forum experienced medical malpractice of sorts. Unless you meant something else, I’m sure here the majority will understand what you’re going through. Unsure if you meant something else please feel free to clarify if you did.

I’m unsure if the doctor who performed the test meant that your symptoms is commonly seen in females with COPD, i.e the severity or the lack of smoking. Or if they meant something entirely.

I’m unsure if you have diagnosis due to one not being disclosed, and being a member doesn’t necessarily equate to that. Though one reason you might not trigger for breathing tests but instead trigger from others, might be due to your physiological symptoms being tied to your psychological symptoms. For instance, it can only show up when you’re put in a situation that your mind views as distressing and for some breathing tests doesn’t qualify as that.

Do you mean during the breathing test?

I’m unsure what this means either.

Yeah, COPD is definitely nothing you can fake. It’s diagnosed solely on a variety of tests like spirometry and and pulse oximetry. As for Asthma, though it can present as an extreme anxiety attack, it’s also something that shows physically due to it being an increase of mucus in the airway.

For them to dismiss that is frustrating in itself.

All of this is aggregating to hear, not at you of course, but the medical community. Though as WhiteRaven pointed out I’m unsure if it’s due to it being an insurance thing or simple negligence.

With the any profession there’s people who genuinely do not should not have their jobs. But in the medical profession with an emphasis on patient care, their screw ups can lead to damages. I don’t know how far it’ll take you or even if it’s worth pursuing, but speaking with a patient advocate might help. Discussing your overall experience with the professionals in a certain practice can at the very least get a complaint filed.

As unfortunate as it is, as WhiteRaven mentioned, we have to shop around so to speak in order to find a professional that could fulfill our needs whether it be ethically or for other reasons. I just had to go to the emergency following a procedure going wrong. When I brought my symptoms to the doctor who did the procedure, I was told that it wasn’t due to complications but instead my generalized anxiety. It was a stupid brush off because if he had asked further questions he would’ve learned my anxiety is minimal and I’m more prone to depression symptoms. So for my symptoms to be anxiety wouldn’t make sense. When things go worse and I had to check myself into the ER I immediately contacted the supervisor of the department and informed them of the doctor who brushed off my symptoms. They said he’ll be under board review. Unsure where that will lead. But if anything it gives me peace of mind of reporting.

I genuinely believe there’s a professional will be able to help you. It’s just a matter of finding them that can be exhausting. In the meantime, reaching out to other medical professionals and representatives may help ease what’s going on.
It is what Ethics told me, Doctors are screwing with me.

What angry Doctor told me is why. Doctors listen to other Doctors and don’t listen to their patients To every time I was harmed.

It should be on my tombstone. Because that is why I am dead.

I trigger birthday candles BEFORE I even know the cake is coming. Over 30 family members know that.

I triggered in a surgery. IT IS NOT MENTAL. f*ck THAT BULLSHIT.

I hired a patient advocate. She set up a full diagnosis paper. It said, my lung issue is due to welding on the job. WHAT??

I was told my medicare this when I was on the phone with them for over 3 hours With all the abuse.

Medicare told me to move, take no records. Seek care. Doctors should know what to do.

So I did. I moved from NY to Virginia with no records. When I first arrived, the nurse showed me bogus records From NY. Provider then told me I would be lied to in Virginia. I complained to office manager. Then told by office manager, I would be lied to in Virginia and stated exact places that I would be lied to. Exact medical places. I tried them, I was lied to. Abused. All that happened In NY, started all over again. Same abuse. Same way. Then again told, I must say I wanted it to be Sarcoidosis or I will NEVER get proper care. I am NOT going to lie why I am being abused. I have recordings. It is one Doctor who admitted to LYING to other Doctors. The angry one.

I have high DLCO. High DLCO is ASTHMA. Low DLCO is everything else. I have asthma.

Sarcoidosis is dry cough. I have on triggers, thick mucus I can’t cough out.

They know what is wrong with me. They are getting paid for severe, high risk Asthma. I just want to regain what a Doctor took from me. Trust. I am never getting it back. One lying Doctor. I have been told since Doctor was mad at me, cause is unimportant, I deserved it. Nazi Doctors were mad at the Jewish people too. Harmed them. Being mad is NOT a reason to abuse anyone. It is a reason to fire a patient, not harm them. For life.
This is everything wrong with American medicine.

Because the patient on the list of importance is on the bottom.

Want to know how I got in contact with ethics? Nurse at hospital came in my room during rounds. She started asking me questions about my care. She told me to contact ethics and how. Before ethics: stop talking about other Doctors for the cause of abuse. After ethics: a full blown list of things that did not happen.
 
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@MPH are you seeing a therapist to validate your trauma and help you develop coping skills?
I have accepted for 9 years. First one in 2015, told me I deserved to Be abused. To 2020, mental health Doctor who told me I was lied to and Doctor is mad at me. Then told me to fear what more Doctors could do to me. To in Virginia where I have been gaslighted on a regular basis.

I wish the counselor I talked to in North Carolina would have been able to help me. She told me she can’t, not licensed In Virginia. But wanted to hear what was going on. So I told her for a couple of hours. She told me if I am getting abused by mental health professional, that is serious.

Told I deserved to die in 2014 by mental health provider.

Told I should fear what more Doctors could do to me in 2020 by mental health Doctor.

That is a diagnosis of PTSD in 2018 never told. Psychosis was eliminated 2018. They know what I said to be the truth.

Diagnosis again 2022, never got help. Instead I get gaslighted. That I am a liar. Making it up. Or the last one. Because of how I got the trauma the chances of getting help will be nil. Much lIke asthma itself, I am not going to get help.
 
She told me she can’t, not licensed In Virginia.
The good news nowadays is that you can pretty much see anyone anywhere on zoom, if you are paying out of pocket. Sounds like you are pretty isolated in terms of people understanding you. There are more than a few people in a similar boat here on the forum. Hope you find some connection, if that’s what you’re looking for.
 
Off label? No. I can should you my breathing test shows I am a female.
I don't know what you mean here.

What *I* meant was that sometimes there are drugs that are prescribed and approved for one thing but given for another. I was replying to this:
Given drugs that my pharmacist said are not approved for asthma.
I don't know if that's what happened; I was just making a comment.

Because NO ONE wants to get involved when your abuser is a Doctor.
Very true.
 
I don't know what you mean here.

What *I* meant was that sometimes there are drugs that are prescribed and approved for one thing but given for another. I was replying to this:

I don't know if that's what happened; I was just making a comment.


Very true.
My Pharmacist spent well over 45 minutes during research on the drug given to me. New drug only approved for COPD. No trials. No tests. Nothing even pending even wanting it to be for asthma. Nothing. It warning says NOT for asthma right on the sample given to me. I was told to not use it. It would be worthless. Since my son works for a pharmacy, he told me pharmacist have way more knowledge on what drugs do and don’t do. I am male, the test showed I am female with COPD. You have to know my exact history with bogus tests.
I once was told I had type 2 diabetes on a blood test. I paid for it myself, well within normal levels.

But NY medical ethics told me flat out: Doctors are in their words screwing with me.

Another one. a Drug store I left. My drug company told me to leave them and report them to Medicare. Given drug for 30 days refill. Go back for refill 30 days later. They say I already received it, call your Doctor for refill. It states I have a refill available. ??
So I go to the drug store, I say I am recording this. I am asking for drug I have a refill for. They say now, it is on the truck. You have to come back. I call to ask if it ready at the time they told me too.

They tell me and I am not kidding. You are not taking your drugs as prescribed. What? The drug has been here ready for you.

So I call my drug company. They investigate. I get a letter stating my care was violated. Report this to Medicare. I am getting screwed with.

Here is the drug they were trying to give me for COPD: Breztri. On their own webpage this warning.

BREZTRI is not used to relieve sudden breathing problems and will not replace a rescue inhaler. BREZTRI is not for the treatment of asthma.
 
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