Does It Ever Get Better? Struggling With Isolation & Uncertainty in Motherhood. Searching For Career Direction & Purpose & Friendships.

[WhereIsMyTribe]

The last few weeks... months have been rough. I don’t know why I always assumed I have so many friends. As soon as I became a mother and didn’t have energy to give my 100% to listen to these friends, they stopped showing up.

It took me back in time. How did I forget? How did I forget my childhood? I was always left behind. I never had friends. I only started making friends why I started acting silly and made fun of myself.

I forgot all about that. And now it’s causes me so much pain. Knowing that I have not only amounted to anything but also didn’t have much from the beginning? I was always in my head.

Now that I am in my 30s.. I don’t know anything. How can one live so many years and be nothing and know nothing ? I studied health sciences to please my loved ones. Now I have no career because I don’t know what I want to do and study anymore? I have been feeling so isolated even as a mother to the point that it feels like the world has moved on and now I don’t know anything about it anymore. What career paths or certifications are worth working on? What to look for ? How to lanongain friendships? I don’t know what I am looking for through this post but I am just so tired. Sometimes I feel like burning all my books that I do frantically bought and read in hopes of healing myself. I am tired and I am heartbroken. Because God knows I tried,

 

[siliverlinings]

I feel this so much. I am so sorry you are alone. I am a 48 year old mom in the middle of a divorce. I am sending the biggest hug. I have no answers. I wish I had them. But I do understand. It is so difficult.

 

[Silver Streaks]

I’m right here, too. 50 years old and in middle of divorce. Abusive relationship of 25 years. Passed over for promotion. Job given to new graduate with no experience.

Same as both of you

 

[WhereIsMyTribe]

I feel this so much. I am so sorry you are alone. I am a 48 year old mom in the middle of a divorce. I am sending the biggest hug. I have no answers. I wish I had them. But I do understand. It is so difficult.

I am so sorry you’re going through this

 

[arfie]

I have been feeling so isolated even as a mother to the point that it feels like the world has moved on and now I don’t know anything about it anymore.

even as a mother? i just started the 5th year of my second parenting career and i believe that motherhood carries a unique brand of isolation, all it's own. these children (ages 4, 7, 10) are my charges, not my friends. time to keep up with my friends? ? ? excuse me while i indulge in a nostalgic sigh in honor of those lucky dogs who are still enjoying a traditional retirement. when i do find the time to visit, they mostly remind me of how much i have lost.

gentle empathy, whereismytribe. my tribe is busy acting their geriatric age.
this demotion to mom sucks like an industrial hoover.