Fear At Night When Home Alone

[Deleted member 12723]

I am happy for you in getting some resolution and closure on the fears.

 

[BuckarooBanzai]

Thanks, Gizmo! :)

Ben

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Years before I was diagnosed, I had intense fear of coming into my house after dark when I was alone. i had a ritual where I looked in every closet and under each bed. I do not know where this intense fear came from but I am no longer afraid to come home to an empty house because I live alone now.

I actually feel good when I come home now and feel no fear at all ever.

I do not remember when my intense fear dissapated and i think this is because I was undiagnosed and did not see anything wrong with this odd behavior. It was a ritual for me.

I am glad that I outgrew that.

 

[BuckarooBanzai]

I am no longer afraid to come home to an empty house because I live alone now.

This amazes me. The whole reason I am afraid is because I live alone.

I still do the search ritual periodically. I've been doing it off-and-on since childhood.

Ben

 

[SometimesWriter]

Noticed something VERY interesting!

I came to this site because I had suddenly developed this f...

I think that's an incredibly astute realization, that probably hurt a lot to realize and I'm really proud of you for coming on here and sharing this with us. I've read your other posts but I can't remember if you've said that you see a T, if you don't - and you want to talk about it with a professional, consider calling RAINN at 1-800-656-4673 or going to their website, there's a chat feature.

<3

 

[BuckarooBanzai]

I can't remember if you've said that you see a T, if you don't - and you want to talk about it with a professional, consider calling RAINN at 1-800-656-4673 or going to their website, there's a chat feature.

Hi - and thank you.

I no longer have PTSD or DID, and so am no longer in therapy.

That said, I only seek peer counseling now. Ever since I dealt with my registered sex offender brother (who was allowed to earn a doctorate in counseling, participate in clinical practicum, start a private practice under supervision) - ever since I fought to shut down his practice - I haven't trust therapists. The APA did nothing, the universities did nothing, the clinics allowed him to practice, and the licensing board allowed him to practice under supervision until I reported him. I've learned, unfortunately, that the profession lacks integrity. The profession allowed him to do literally whatever he wanted as long as no one complained.

Sad but true. At one point, I was doing graduate work in psychology, but I no longer want to be associated with any of these so-called 'professionals'.

Fortunately, due to my complaint, the licensing board refused him licensure. But, again, they only did that because someone complained.

Ben