Anyway, the fear of everything started last March of 2011 when I went to the movies and saw a trailer for Skyline. For some reason it put a lot of fear into me...fear of something that wasn't real that I really thought was going to happen. I don't know why I felt like that or why I continue to fear things that are not real.
I have fear of meeting new people. In the past between friendships I was the only one who got hurt. True, I don't know how the other person felt but it seemed to me that they did not want to make an effort to reconcile our friendship by reaching out. All of my past relationships seemed to be one sided where I was the one always inviting them to do things. I just don't know why my friendships was always one sided.
I just fear a lot of things like people. I am afraid of being judged by people. It really did not effect me as much as it does now, because I had a great sense of imagination and could easily ignore people's comments. Some comments I saw were negative even though the person was probably trying to help. I am 25 years old and was really never interested in boys. I was once interested in grammar school and had a crush on a boy. I made the mistake of asking him out and being rejected. Since then I really wasn't ever "Interested" in the opposite (or same) sex. I can't figure out why.
I had dreams of being a mom though. But then I scared myself into things like what happens if the kid goes through the same thing I went through...bullying/teasing.etc. Or asks questions I don't know how to answer. I know everyone doesn't have answers to everything but I'm scared of practically everything. There are tons of diseases/cancers etc that people CAN get and I'm scared that I will get everything. :(. I know the fear is fear itself but I can't get a handle on my own life...how can I handle someone else's life?
I always fear that I am ruining people's lives. I have been putting up a battle w/ my parents in hopes they will get me some kind of help other then seeing a therapist since in the past they have not been listening or giving suggestions on how to get past things. All they think their job is to "listen."
I have joined meetup groups on a website but scared to go because I don't know the people. I just can't go on instinct any more. Before I got worse I felt like nobody was really paying attention because when I first felt like I was scared of Everything my mom simple said "No you're not," or when I told them my therapist was falling asleep they just saw it as complaining. I honestly don't know why they won't listen or help me. I don't know what to do. I'm 25 years old and have to look to my parents for help, even though they honestly gave up listening to my complaining. I never really complained or opened my mouth a lot prior to the incident I had, and still no one listens.
I get embarrased talking about private things like body stuff.
Anybody else feel like this? I have had trouble talking about private stuff to people prior to the incident and don't know how to talk to people w/o the fear that they will do something just because they don't like what they hear.
I have fear of meeting new people. In the past between friendships I was the only one who got hurt. True, I don't know how the other person felt but it seemed to me that they did not want to make an effort to reconcile our friendship by reaching out. All of my past relationships seemed to be one sided where I was the one always inviting them to do things. I just don't know why my friendships was always one sided.
I just fear a lot of things like people. I am afraid of being judged by people. It really did not effect me as much as it does now, because I had a great sense of imagination and could easily ignore people's comments. Some comments I saw were negative even though the person was probably trying to help. I am 25 years old and was really never interested in boys. I was once interested in grammar school and had a crush on a boy. I made the mistake of asking him out and being rejected. Since then I really wasn't ever "Interested" in the opposite (or same) sex. I can't figure out why.
I had dreams of being a mom though. But then I scared myself into things like what happens if the kid goes through the same thing I went through...bullying/teasing.etc. Or asks questions I don't know how to answer. I know everyone doesn't have answers to everything but I'm scared of practically everything. There are tons of diseases/cancers etc that people CAN get and I'm scared that I will get everything. :(. I know the fear is fear itself but I can't get a handle on my own life...how can I handle someone else's life?
I always fear that I am ruining people's lives. I have been putting up a battle w/ my parents in hopes they will get me some kind of help other then seeing a therapist since in the past they have not been listening or giving suggestions on how to get past things. All they think their job is to "listen."
I have joined meetup groups on a website but scared to go because I don't know the people. I just can't go on instinct any more. Before I got worse I felt like nobody was really paying attention because when I first felt like I was scared of Everything my mom simple said "No you're not," or when I told them my therapist was falling asleep they just saw it as complaining. I honestly don't know why they won't listen or help me. I don't know what to do. I'm 25 years old and have to look to my parents for help, even though they honestly gave up listening to my complaining. I never really complained or opened my mouth a lot prior to the incident I had, and still no one listens.
I get embarrased talking about private things like body stuff.
Anybody else feel like this? I have had trouble talking about private stuff to people prior to the incident and don't know how to talk to people w/o the fear that they will do something just because they don't like what they hear.
