Sufferer Feeling Lonely At The Moment

[MagiLisu]

Hello,

I have not been 'officially' diagnosed but I have been seeing a therapist who thinks it is a very strong possibility that I have been suffering from PTSD for over 10 years due to constant bullying at school.

I have been getting support over the last year from my therapist, family, & spouse. They have all been wonderful and they all feel that I have turned a corner and I am getting better. I agree to a point, although I still feel that I have a long way to go, and I am unsure if I will ever feel fully 'better' (whatever that is).

The thing that has been bothering me lately is that although I have people around me (parents, siblings, & spouse) I still feel incredibly lonely. I do have friends, for various reasons (trust issues, not wanting to bother people, friends moving away &/or on) I don't really feel able to 'talk' to them. My closest friend lives far away from me and they are very busy with their own life and new friends. I know that if I ever really needed them they would be there but the distance has put a strain on our relationship.

I also get on very well with everyone I work with, and have opened up quite a lot to my manager but again there is a barrier there and I don't like to bother them with my day to day anxieties and thoughts. I think the people I work with are aware of my 'problems' but I try to keep things at work lighthearted and don't talk about my private life all the time.

I am not really sure what I am expecting really, I know that I am lucky to have the support I do have but I still feel so alone.

MagiLisu

 

[KatB]

Magi, you are not alone. I totally understand your situation and the feelings that arise from them. I also find myself particularly lonely since I have pushed away a lot of ppl, but also then, I also don't know how to talk to my current friends either.

I think the feelings of uncertainty have become quite common for a lot of ptsd sufferers, especially for those with chronic or severe types. Taking the first step is always the hardest, but it is worth it. I know- I am there also. I guess what I can tell you is that: this is about the journey, not the destination. This is about baby steps...

 

[Deleted member 12723]

You are not alone. I think a measure of loneliness goes with the ptsd territory. You will in time begin to get closer to safe others. It will just take time.

 

[Wiccanwolf]

Hello Magi! It's nice to meet you. I know exactly how you feel - it really is like you can be in a crowded room and still feel like the only person there. But one thing I have learned just in the day or two being here is that there are so many others out there who feel just how you do. :) You've taken a big step in introducing yourself to us and it can (hopefully!) only get better from here! :)

 

[wyrd_dragon]

hey there,

I just wanted to give you a warm welcome and tell you that I, like you, struggle with feelings of isolation even though I'm surrounded by loving people. As others have said, I think this kinda comes with the territory -- dealing with feelings and states of being that most people don't really connect with can leave you feeling like you can't communicate your feelings, even to your closest people.

I've found this is a good place to reach out when you feel lonely, and I'll keep an eye out for you.

*gentle hugs* (if that's ok)

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. :)

 

[KP the nut]

Hi and welcome to the forum.