Feels Like A Step Backwards

[nic1633]

I have been having so many flashbacks lately. Oddly enough, they seem to be new ones. It seems like every time I get any degree of control, there's a new angle of this diagnosis that rears its ugly head.

I have been attempting to flip the script on my flashbacks, to take hold of the here and now and "walk out" on the memory. I literally put myself in the flashback and do what I wish I would've done. I know that will never change the true memory, but I'm not bound to reliving it over and over again. As much as is possible, I wish for the past to stay the past. It really happened, but it doesn't have to happen again!!

However, I have a cold this week, and that wreaks havoc on all my emotions, making normal symptoms far worse because I'm too tired and foggy headed to fight. Feels like I'm sinking backwards. If anyone prays, I would covet your prayers. Thanks.

 

[KwanYingirl]

I like how you put your grown self into your flashbacks. I'm going to try that ! I hope you get well soon.

 

[Sweet Girl]

Get well soon. They say this too shall pass, as hard as it might be. It sounds like you've been through some flashbacks already previously. Just remind yourself that they subsided as you worked through them and these will too.

 

[Friday]

The awesome thing, when there's a direct reason for "Let the Games Begin!" (I'm exhausted, sick, etc.)... Is knowing that. Okay! This is a temporary thing, it will be over soon. Get through it. Cut myself some slack.