Ellabella44
Diamond Member
having anxious day today, had thought it would have gotten better. woke up this way. came up here , chatted, posted a bit, looked at some things ive also had experiences with, i dont know if i somehow triggered it being worse, or if it was just an anxiety day altogether. went through my grief phase... and from when my husband got home till now ive been anxious. put on some music while cooking and it had our wedding song on it, he came back from getting some milk at store, heard the song and said oh is this where I kiss you... ugh like an idiot i get all insecure , hug him and start crying because im frustrated that I dont feel emotion for him right now.
everything that hurts seems to be so much stronger than feeling happy, or love , or anything else. and I cant tell him that. I have trouble talking to him even about things im upset about.... usually if i do get anything out, I have to write it down. im frustrated that I cant feel anything for him but physical attraction right now. I want to, I try, and I know its my insecurities keeping me from it. I hate that my worst days all I do is leave a note and run. anyone have something that has helped with this ?
everything that hurts seems to be so much stronger than feeling happy, or love , or anything else. and I cant tell him that. I have trouble talking to him even about things im upset about.... usually if i do get anything out, I have to write it down. im frustrated that I cant feel anything for him but physical attraction right now. I want to, I try, and I know its my insecurities keeping me from it. I hate that my worst days all I do is leave a note and run. anyone have something that has helped with this ?
