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[AngryVictim]

Hello, this is my intro post, I am here because about a year and a half ago my drink was spiked and I was raped. I never was able to make it to the counseling sessions which were recommended for me, and I thought I would be able to deal through any mental issues with yoga or prayer, but I still have this unexpected, immense bottled rage that comes out sporadically, through tears at random stop signs, before I go in the grocery store, etc.

I find that I am much more likely to welcome aggressive females or males when I am out and about because I have no fear of getting into a fight with them because I feel like I will get to unleash, finally, and this is not fair and I don't like it.

And I don't know when it's going to go away, even if he gets prison time, will that fix this? I don't know… I am very grateful to have all of you to talk to you.

And I hope that I can offer support as much as possible, as well. <3

 

[claire east]

Hello, this is my intro post, I am here because about a year and a half ago my drink was spiked and...

You will feel like that mine was different to yours mine lasted two years but I struggle when I go out and there people around you should try counselling again I had mine for two years I don't think you be able to move on until you deal with the issue I think counselling will help

 

[hodge]

I'm so sorry for what happened to you, Angry. Therapy will definitely help. I had so much anger when my PTSD came on (delayed by decades) I was disgusted with myself. But I worked hard in therapy and now I am pretty much anger-free. You can get there.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums!

Rage is a common thing, takes a while to get through it. Theraphy and counseling definitely do help, so I recommend that. The thing I noticed is that the abuser suffering isn't normally the thing that helps us recover, but instead working through our issues. Maybe finding some other anger vents, e.g. training, or swearing-yelling groups?

Hugs and good luck in recovery :hug:

 

[Anarchy]

Welcome to the forum.

A friend who's not a member here yet, reminded me today, that the process can be a bit like grieving, that anger, disbelief and sadness are all parts of it.

You've found a great place. There are people here 24/7 who know what it's like

Welcome!

 

[Gadgie]

Welcome to the site AngryVictim, as already mentioned you will find plenty of support from the folk on this site.

I know that, because it's helped me a lot, and the best thing is, they can all understand.

 

[intothelight]

@AngryVictim Welcome! :)

Anger is pretty normal and it takes time to figure out the source, to process, and then to let it go. Your anger is justified and yes, should your attacker go to jail, that bit of justice does help. For myself, I found my own anger was a bunch of emotions all balled up and it helped when I was able to untangle them and process them individually.

 

[AngryVictim]

Welcome to the forums!

Rage is a common thing, takes a while to get through it. Theraphy and counseling...

Thank you Saelben! I agree, I see that nothing which happens to him will help me to feel better. I really want to help other victims of sexual assault though...that makes me feel a lil better. I will continue to process my emotions, patiently. :( Thank you!! XOXO

 

[AngryVictim]

@AngryVictim Welcome! :)

Anger is pretty normal and it takes time to figure ou...

This is very helpful, thank you! Im sorry for your bad experience and I appreciate your thoughts here very much.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

@AngryVictim
Yes, helping other does make one feel better :hug: