sonickel77
Bronze Member
Greetings
After a nine month hiatus, I am going back to the cuff linked psychiatrist I was seeing last year.
I quit therapy because I wasn't getting anywhere. I had withdrawn to the point of not talking about anything real because I didn't trust him, or think that he cared at all. Too much the blank slate.
Now, after failed social work training, socialising with my abusers, confronting them on their past and hearing their lame justifications for it, starting a new job, and my mum having yet another psychotic episode, my stress levels are astronomical.
I'm seeing a psychologist atm, but sometimes she can be a bit too blunt for my liking. Eg calling my insane mother a "terrible burden" and "like the living dead". Yes she traumatized me as a kid, but she's still my mother!
And now I am obsessing over it all again, getting afraid of him, and generally flipping out even more.
Simultaneously seeking reassurance and being terrified of this extremely benign, almost bland person!
Does anyone else relate to this madness?
He's only a human being!
After a nine month hiatus, I am going back to the cuff linked psychiatrist I was seeing last year.
I quit therapy because I wasn't getting anywhere. I had withdrawn to the point of not talking about anything real because I didn't trust him, or think that he cared at all. Too much the blank slate.
Now, after failed social work training, socialising with my abusers, confronting them on their past and hearing their lame justifications for it, starting a new job, and my mum having yet another psychotic episode, my stress levels are astronomical.
I'm seeing a psychologist atm, but sometimes she can be a bit too blunt for my liking. Eg calling my insane mother a "terrible burden" and "like the living dead". Yes she traumatized me as a kid, but she's still my mother!
And now I am obsessing over it all again, getting afraid of him, and generally flipping out even more.
Simultaneously seeking reassurance and being terrified of this extremely benign, almost bland person!
Does anyone else relate to this madness?
He's only a human being!
