Going To Miss Her.

[FindingMyself88]

Today was my last counseling session with my Therapist of two years :(. It didn't really hit me until I left her office. I feel like I shouldn't complain because I will get to see her again. We had to stop seeing each other because I am now seeing a trauma therapist. After I was admitted into a psychiatric hospital for my suicide attempt, part of the deal for me to be discharged was that I would begin seeing a trauma therapist. I started with her a month ago and she said that she didn't think it would be smart for me to be seeing both at once due to different practices, which I understand. My old T understood as well, so she saw me up until today so I could get adjusted. My old T is through the university and I have a contract with my psychiatrist through her so that I can get free treatments. So even though today was my last therapy session with her, I will have to see her every 6-8 weeks during the fall and spring semesters to keep my psychiatrist appointments.

I am thankful I still get to see her, although I won't see her for 3 months over the summer. It is hitting me hard now. I thanked her for everything today and talked about how far I've come. It's just going to be really different not seeing her. Plus she allowed me to email her during the week if needed. I haven't talked to my new therapist about that possibility, and I'm not really sure how to ask or if it would be appropriate. I only emailed my old T when something major happened or I was having a really tough time that week. Normally unless I was suicidal, she would just remind me of coping techniques and we would discuss the issues the next session. If I was suicidal or having a hard time, she would email me for a couple of days to check on me.

I don't feel I have much room to complain as I will get to see her again. Plus I really like my new therapist so far and I think she will be able to take me further in dealing with my ptsd….

 

[Deleted member 12723]

One door slowly closing opening to another. I wish you the best in your new transition. It is so hard to get attached to people on a regular basis and then have to leave them to continue to heal and to grow. Congratulations on this new step for you.

 

[TimeToHeal]

I think it's a very natural thing @FindingMyself88, to feel a sadness or sort of "grief," when any relationship changes or ends. Especially when this is someone who has been a source of help and support.

It's on to a new level of work and healing for you! It sounds like you have found a great trauma therapist to guide you on this leg of your journey, which is huge.

:hug: to you...