For every one, it . the healing and experience, can be completely different.
My teacher, used to tell me that using plants,is like being in a private school .I used Ayahuaska 9 years ago with the guidance of the
Francisco montes in Peru. The system there is that you use a another medicinal plant daily for a few weeks(diet with the plant) , and then twice a week do Ayahuaska ceremony. We stayed for the retreat in the forest.
I felt that using this method of doing the diet with the plant, apart for being healing itself was giving direction to the Ayahuaska ceremonies. So I got a continuous process of systematic healing concentrated on specific issues. In my case I was healed from anger I felt from my childhood, and forgave relevant people including my parents.
Actually I was not aware of this anger I felt, that was so blocking me. It came to me in memories, and understanding, and the anger came out, until it has been cured. I also talked to my parents this period, and forgave them.
I also felt that from feeling like a confused child, I became a decisive man. One of the benefits, that felt like a miracle, was that from being musically deaf, I started to hear tones and rhythm, and started to be able to sing. people felt this changes on me.
Also this period has cultivated in me connection to nature, the plants and staying in the forest cultivated it.
So before I didn't think about god and so on, but some experiences raised faith in me.
So both the simple and natural setting in the forest, and the diet with plants help incredibly with Ayahuaska. And that is why I recommend those kind of retreats. I don't think most good healers in Peru, think that Ayahuaska should heal alone.
In the last months I started again to use Ayahuaska. Again I use daily medicinal plants.
This time I live household life.
So I feel it supports in my life.
I can get understanding. So for example, when I thought I am about to be fired and looked for a job, my friends told me not to be so stressed . I didn't understand what they mean, but after taking Ayahuaska I understood, and could take moves in a more relaxed way.
Also the stress of the week can be cleared, and I usually feel re-leaved, energetic and relaxed after a session.
The important thing is that it heals me systematically. For me it works now in healing the trauma that I have passed. And even if it has not been healed completely, I can accept myself for this, and I am not so upset with my self about my suffering. I can handle situations that raise the trauma.
It also grounds me in my body, so I enjoy more the sun for example, or music. It thought me to be more fluid. So the emotions pass and not get stuck.
and helps healing my relation with my wife, since I understand her better, and I can see that I am not alone, and can see the bigger picture, and the importance of my family in my life.
So what I want to say, is that Ayahuaska is not working alone. For me it is working with other plants, and other things I do in life, for a systematic focused healing.
Taking Ayahuska alone can be healing and meaningful, but might not lead to systematic healing.
but for me I feel it is important that it will heal me in this focused way. One way one might get it, is by having an intention/ request for healing. your daily life is very important and the intention in you everyday actions.
About modern medicine I don't know. I know that Ayahuaska heals deeply from inside, or at least lets me touch the unhealed, and accept it.
I have been to therapy done speaking. It was very healing, but at some stage I didn't want to repeat myself talking about my difficulties and trauma, and I didn't think this repetition is going to help.
Ayahuaska does heal me , not always by defining things in words. It heals from the inside.
