Healing Letter

[Kunoichi]

I hope this qualifies as a success Anthony, it was and is a HUGE step for me:

I wrote a letter to my abuser. Not just expressing my anger but owning what happened to me. Not only that but owning my fear!

You can read my letter in my trauma diary!

I have to say I feel so happy! I mean his programming is beatable and he can't hurt me anymore. Until today I haven't been able to say it or accept it!

I did burn it too...it was great to see that melt away. i know i won't be able to forget my past and I know that I will have to deal with the symptoms of PTSD maybe forever, but at least I can say that he can't define who I am anymore. I can succeed in spite of what has happened to me!

:)

^_^ YAY

 

[anthony]

Really well done Kunoichi.... I do believe that is an exceptional success which is exactly what this specific forum is all about. Well done to you and congratulations on taking back control....

 

[morgan]

Good job kunoichi. You are coming right along. You should be proud of yourself.

:Hug_emoticon:Morgan

 

[ssgrader]

WOO HOOO way to go... You have just stepped over a huge milestone and one that i hope I can also cross. You are a hero to me ... If you can do it so can I

James

 

[Jim]

Good on you Kunoichi. My daughter wrote a similar letter, and from seeing the changes in her afterwards, it is a huge step to say the least. Extremely well done, be proud of yourself!

Jim.

 

[cragger65]

You've given me hope - I've set out to write letters like this a few times, but got overwhelmed and lost in rage. Maybe time for me to try again, with ownership of self more in mind now. The burning of the trash seems significant.

 

[Nicolette]

Really good work Kunoichi. I understand this process and have used it myself. I found that "having my say" was very therapeutic and the burning symbolised an end to the emotion...not the memories. Reality is telling your abuser how you feel probably doesn't matter to them...if they cared in the first place they would not have abused you. It does however matter to you so far as to say you got to release the emotion eating you up inside.

I'm really happy for you!

 

[Kunoichi]

Thank You all for your support and encouragement!!! It has meant loads to me!

I know that I am still going to have to deal with the symptoms...my healing is very far from over, and i know I might have to write more as my emotions and thoughts become more focused. Since I have wrote that letter I haven't had a nightmare about my abuser, my sleep is still not as restless but that at least has stopped for now.

Again, thankyou all for your love and support! It means the world to me!

 

[Mina]

Kunoichi, that is so awesome!!! Congratulations on great progress!

 

[Tinyflame]

Kunoichi- you have tons of courage.
Congratulations on this big step! :occasion:
:Hug_emoticon: